Changes

Chapter 39

“Daddy” The word slipped from Cole’s mouth, letting out a small cry.

“Leah” Stan said breathless as he kept swaying back in forth

I closed my eyes, taking a deep inhale. In my head I could hear a voice screaming ‘No!’ This is not how I wanted to tell Zayn or any of the other guys for that matter.

“Leah, I uh, I didn’t know what to do. He um, well Cole was crying so I tried to get him to stop. Which he did, but um yeah” Stan said rambling, not really making situation any better.

“It’s fine. Thank you” I said quietly to Stan, my voice slitghly cracking

I heard Zayn clear his throat. I whipped my head around to see him running his fingers through his damp hair from the snow. “I think I’m gonna go” He said avoiding eye contact.

I could see Louis, standing to the side of me giving me a sympathetic look. “Zayn, please” I said, looking up at him, trying to read his expression.

“Leah, I think it’s best if I go right now.” He said as he started to back away from me slowly.

I could feel my heart start to ache as he spoke.

“Zayn” I begged again as I reached out for his hand. I could feel Louis and Stan’s eyes on me as I spoke.

He grabbed my hand and pulled me close. “Please, don’t leave. We can talk” I said to him, with sadness dropping from every word.

I bit my lip, waiting for him to do something, anything.

He let go of my hand, and placed it under my chin. “We’ll talk tomorrow. I promise.” He said to me as he leaned down towards me.

“Okay” I said, knowing I shouldn’t push him. He probably was mad, or upset.

He bent down and kissed me on the lips. It was light, but at least it was something. “I’ll call you tomorrow” he said as his lips left mine.

I nodded as I watched him leave. He waved to Louis and Stan as he traveled back down the hallway. I was frozen, against the wall across from the guest room. I felt like each foot weighed 100 lbs. I could see both Stan and Louis staring at me. Louis, with his apologetic and sympathetic looks, Stan with his confused yet upset emotions written across his face.

Standing there I could still hear him down the hall, he hadn’t left yet. He was still talking to the guys in the kitchen. “Leaving so soon mate?” I hear Niall call out.

Zayn’s replied saying he was tired. I could then hear Danielle ask “Are you okay Zayn, you don’t have that glow that you had when you walked in a few minutes ago?”

It was like a stab to the heart. No Zayn wasn’t happy anymore. Yes, we had been minutes ago when we were walking in the snow down the street without a care in the world. Zayn’s reply was just the same to what he said to Niall, that he was tired, he even said he wasn’t feel that great and that it came on suddenly.

When I heard the door close I let out a sigh. I felt a hand land on my back and saw Louis standing there. “Lee, I totally forgot to text you. Then we got back here and your phone was here and they said you and Zayn would be back soon. Everyone wanted to come back here because they knew Liam, Danielle, and you guys would all be here” Louis said

Stan, who had put Cole back in his bed walked out of the room. “I promise that wasn’t on purpose. I didn’t tell anyone. I wanted to talk to you about it first and Louis told me you hadn’t told anyone yet. So I didn’t want to cause any problem” he said. Stan took a deep breath before continuing “I swear all I did was come back here for one second. Louis was trying to get something out of his room to show me and Cole started crying. Liam’s girlfriend Danielle started to come down the hall to get him but Louis said that we could do it. Although he left me to go talk to Harry quickly. That’s when you walked in. All I was gonna do was make him stop, put him back to bed, then head over to Niall’s before you got back. I’m sorry” he said.