Changes

Chapter 26

Knock Knock Kncok

The door flew open and revealed Zayn, standing there with the same smile he had earlier. Seeing the look on his face almost made the nervousness I felt disappear.

He led me in and closed the door behind me. As I was walking in I felt his strong arms grab me around the wasit from behind. He then rested his head on my shoulder “I’m happy you came this weekend.” He said to me sweetly

I mumbled a few words before saying “me too” to him. I couldn’t stop my self from biting my lip as he dropped his embrace and picked up the bags from his foyer.

He walked down the hall into his room, but I didn’t seem to notice until he called my name. I walked down the hall where he went and found him in a dark blue room. The walls were painted with cool designs all over them. Up on the walls were posters of bands and pictures of his friends and family.

“You okay?” Zayn said after a few minutes

Taking my eyes away from the walls I looked at him and nodded “Yeah, I’m fine”

He shook his head a little bit and said “Are you sure? You’ve seemed really distracted since you walked in”

I looked at him, trying to give him a reassuring smile and said “Nope everything’s fine!”

He seemed to drop it and he changed the subject as we talked about his time at home.

When he was talking I tried to listen, but my mind just kept wandering. “Do you mind if I get some water?” I asked him when he was done telling a story.

He was unpacking but he offered to show me but I told him that I could figure it out.

I was standing over the sink looking out the window. ‘Inhale, exhale’ I repeated to myself as I took another sip.

:So you want to tell me the real reason why you are so distracted?” Zayn said coming up behind me.

I turned around and faced him, leaning against the sink. I didn’t say anything, I just looked down and took another sip.

He hoisted himself up on the counter and let his feet dangle in the air as she sat on the granite.

“Is it me? because you seemed fine before you got here” he said with his voice dropping

I looked up and shook my head “No its not you. I’m happy to be here with you” I said as I took one of my long curls and started twirling it with my fingers.

Zayn jumped off the counter and walked over to me. He took his finger and pressed it under my chin. He lightly brought my head up, making me look at him. “Do you want to talk?” he asked in a concern voice.

‘not really’ I thought to myself. But I grabbed his hand and led him to the couch. The one that a week earlier we had fallen asleep on together.

I sat down and pulled my legs in close and turned to Zayn. “I need to tell you something” I said in a almost inaudible tone.

“Okay, I’m here to listen” he said to me.

I took a deep breath and closed my eyes. “Remember last week when I told you about how Louis and I stopped getting along for a while because we got into a big fight?” I asked

I opened my eyes as he said “Yeah I remember”

I another deep breath. “Well I didn’t tell you what the fight was about”

I felt him grab my hand. I could feel him rubbing is thumb against my hand. It was soothing, making me feel at ease a bit. “You don’t have to tell me if you don’t want to” he said sweetly

I looked up at his big brown eyes and said “No I need to tell you. It’s something that I need to put out there and I want you to know”

Looking into his eyes again I said “I really like you Zayn, I really do. And I want us to become more than this. I loved going on those dates with you. And I like to spend time with you I talk on the phone with you.”

He cut me off. “I do too. I really like you too Leah.”

I stopped him and said “But we can’t move forward if I don’t tell you this. It’s a big part of my life and its gonna effect us.”

He just nodded. I could tell he looked a little confused but I could also tell he was very interested in what I had to say.

“I don’t really know how to say this. But um the reason the fight started was because I had to tell Louis that I was pregnant”

I didn’t dare look up at him. I didn’t want to see the look that he was giving me.

Putting my head down and closing my eyes I said “Zayn, the reason that I wanted to go slow and that I wanted to talk to you today was to tell you that I have a son. He’s 18 months. I needed to tell you before we got to serious and before it was to hard for us to stop seeing each other”

“Leah, I-” He stated to say but I cut him of.

“I really want you to think about it. I don’t want you to say something or commit to anything that you might regret” I said with my eyes still closed

When I finally opened my eyes he was still sitting on the couch and his hand was still on mine. I couldn’t figure it out.

Before I knew it my legs were carrying me to the door. I felt him pull my arm around “Leah, wait. Why are you leaving?” he question worriedly

Sighing I turned around and looked at him. He was running his hands through his perfect black hair. “Please don’t go” he said to me

“I have to. I want you to think about it. You have to make the decision without me being here. Zayn, I really like you and I know you like me too. But this is a big deal. I can’t be with someone without them being apart of my son’s life. We go together”

I started walking backwards towards the door. “Okay I’ll think about it, I promise I will” he said.

I nodded, as I stated to turn the doorknob to leave. As soon as I opened the door I felt it beign closed against my force.

Zayn then pushed himself in fornt of the door, and kissed me. He kissed me, but this was different. I wasn’t like one in the parking lot earlier or the one in the rain. This one was more gentle and comforting. He had his hands placed on my face as his thumbs rubbed along my chin.

I put my hands on his face, pushing my self away. “Please?” I asked trying to open the door

He looked at me, with a bit of sadness before opening the door “I promise” he said as I walked out.

I looked over my shoulder and whispered a thank you as I walked down to Louis flat.

I had a different feeling in my stomach. It wasn’t like I felt before. I wasn’t as nervous. I was more worried. I was worried that I had scared him off. I was worried that he wasn’t going to think about it. I was also worried about the way he was going to look at me form now on.

Walking into the apartment I could hear all the possible scenarios running though my head. But all of it was pushed aside for later when I felt to arms attack my legs. Looking down at him I realized something. I was going to have to be okay with whatever Zayn choose. I couldn’t regret it because when I see Cole, I never, ever regret him.