Changes

Chapter 48

Zayn was facing me, still pacing, as I was laying on his bed. “That’s so soon.” I said after a few minutes, the words barely audible.

Zayn stopped pacing, and walked over to the bed.

He sat next to me, indian style, as I did the same.

He took my hands into his lap, pulling me closer, eliminating the space between us. Placing his soft lips on the center of my forehead. “We will make the time last” he said smoothly.

I looked up at him, placing my forehead against his. “How long?” I asked

“Few months. We’re not exactly sure yet. Tickets go on sale next week for the dates we have set up now. Then they might add additional shows” he sighed.

I swallowed, hard, taking it all in.

“This sucks” I said simply.

All he could do was agree. “We will be back before you know it! And maybe you can visit us on some stops”

“How? I have school, I have Cole!” I said, getting a little agitated.

I didn’t mean to be like that towards Zayn, I was just mad at the situation. Their tour was starting in about a month. February 1st to be exact. I had one month to spend with him and everyone else until they would leave. I knew he couldn’t help it, this was his life. I just wished it would have been at a later time.

Deep down I was freaking out a bit. Not only would Zayn be gone, but so would Louis and Harry. When I had decided to transfer toLondonfor school, I had told Louis of my plans. He had assured me that I could continue living with them while I attended school, apartments were costly, and I was already in a great location, plus day care for Cole was very close by. But, with the boys gone, I was unsure about living at their place, alone. Or even if they would want me there at all.

All these thoughts were racing through my head. I could barley wrap my mind around anything Zayn was saying.

“We will work something out! Or I guess you could just not visit me at all if your so busy” he said, putting some attitude into his voice.

“I can’t just drop everything to come and find you on tour. Sorry if I want to get an education!” I bite back

“I’m not asking you to! I’m saying for one show here and there! And if school is so important to you then why would you leave your old one to comeLondon?” he pressed

I was silent for a moment, then said “To be closer to everyone! My fault that I thought you would be happy about this” I said defensively

“I am, but I am trying to help you out here! If you’re gonna be so miserable when we are gone and you’re not going to come see us, then maybe you should go back home! You were fine there before, clearly” He said, his voice still filled with emotion.

I gave him a look, before saying “You think I want to go back to that place! Where everyone stared at me all the time. Where everyone talked about me and you and our business. Where Hannah threw coffee on me, in front of everyone” I said standing up. I grabbed my bag off the floor, walking towards the door. Taking a quick look at Zayn to see his face suddenly lose its stone look and fill with worry. “Believe it or not Zayn, you are not the only reason I transferred. I will see you in the morning” I said firmly, closing his bedroom door behind me.

When I had gotten there Zayn had told me, which his father had also so kindly reminded us, that I would be sleeping in Doniya’s room. For once I was happy of his fathers disliking of me, putting us in separate bedrooms seemed like torture but right now I was thankful.