Life is a roller coaster ride.
I'm in the TV room watching TV with a hot cup of coffee in my hand. I have tons of stuff on my mind. Everything is a mess. My life is a spiraling out of control right in front of my eyes. I am strong but for how long? I'm close to breaking point.
"Hey" Lizzy, my brother's girlfriend greeted.
"Good morning" I whispered.
"You're up early" she said, dryly.
"Couldn't sleep" I said.
"Oh?"
She wants me to elaborate...talk to her. I don't really know much about Lizzy. I've never had a one on one conversation with her. She's always away working on a story. I'm not comfortable enough to talk to her about the mess that is my life.
"Oh?" I raised a brow.
"Look, Christian, I know we've only known each other for a few days but if you ever wanna share things with me please feel free to do so. Your brother highlighted your situation to me and I..."
"Wait, Lwazi told you about the arranged marriage?"
"He did...I am sorry if..."
"Stop... Stop apologizing. I need more coffee" I headed to the kitchen to pour myself another cup of coffee.
She tip toed behind me like a toddler, "Chris..."
"Christian" I corrected.
"Right. Christian, I'm sorry if I'm making you uncomfortable" she twiddled her fingers anxiously.
Why am I rude to her?
I hate how she looks at me. She feels sorry for me. Poor Christian has to marry an unknown man or lose her family.
Pathetic!
She better stay the hell out of my way.
I went to Phila and I's room. We share a room because well...there are only two bedrooms here.
Phila sleeps like a wild animal. Her snoring drives me nuts.
She's at school today so I have the room all to myself to study and prep myself for tomorrow's life science paper. life science is one of the subjects I master. I've always been smart. I have more than ten certificates to show. School has always been my escape.
My phone is ringing. It's Shane.
'Hey' I said as I shut the door behind me and settled on my bed.
I haven't spoken to him in days. He doesn't call or text. His silence confuses me.
I know we're not back together but we did have sex that day. I thought that meant something to him, because it meant so much to me.
'Where are you hiding yourself' He asked.
'I'm not hiding'
'Well, you're awfully quiet. What's up?'
He sounds.. Casual.
'What do you mean?'
'I mean I haven't heard from you in days. Why is that?'
'I'm guessing it's because you haven't called me in days' I snapped at him.
'I wasn't sure you'd pick up'
Why wouldn't I?'
He huffed in annoyance. 'I didn't wanna get you in trouble with your father. I thought he took your phone or something'
