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luke
I stared at my ceiling with wide eyes. What was happening to me? I was getting sober because of my thoughts were consuming me.
Why was I so affected that Jane ditched me? My friends had ditched me so many times and I never gotten this upset. Maybe it was because I made a proper dinner for both of us?
Maybe because I was planning to give her a bracelet I got her today? But I shouldn't be like this. We aren't in a relationship and she was just my friend. Why did that sounded weird?
She's just another girl that I've met a few months ago and I just feel like we have this some connection between us and I just comprehend what it is. It's just that when I got home, I just realized that I've slept with her. And she was just okay with it.
Well I'm not. The night I was kissing her lips it tasted like cherry, sweeter than cherry. When I touched her skin it felt as soft as silk and the sounds she made were music to my ears. It's not supposed to be that way.
I should've just thought that she's another friend of mine that I've hooked up with but no it isn't like that. I couldn't forget the image of her laying beneath me and how she replied to my every kiss with passion, why was I going like this?
It was just Jane, just Jane. The girl I pretended to have a relationship so I can show Alexa that I've moved on. But I didn't know if I have moved on with Alexa, I haven't known what step three is. Jane never told me.
I wondered what is step three? I'm slightly still upset with her ditching me but I knew that she had an explanation for it. And I just couldn't go on a day without her. It's like she has been somewhat a part of me.
And I knew that if she left me for good, I'd be crushed. It's that I probably a little feelings for her, she's beautiful, witty and fun. She didn't care what she wore or what she did, she was okay everything, She accepts everything and everyone and I admired her for that.
So in short maybe I was devoloping a liking towards Jane, i mean it isn't bad. It's just a little crush, it's not like I'm gonna fall in love with her right?
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jane
200 text messages, 101 emails, and 80 voicemails later.
No replies. I understand that Luke would be upset with me because I ditched him to text Michael. He was considered as one of my top priorities and I wondered to myself why? I glanced up my ceiling not knowing what to do.
I tapped my turtle pillow that shoned lights that seem like stars. I always felt comfortable watching the stars even though these are fake. It's just that I feel like they're watching over me and they twinkle like they're is something to smile for.
And I just realized in that moment that I can do something, it may sound cliche but I'm just hoping that he forgives me.
