Step Brother 2: Jealousy (Completed)

Seven

Rome gets down on the floor beside me, for a couple minutes neither of us talk. All that can be heard, is my sobs.

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"What have you done, Kate? This is bad." He looks at me with such worry.

"I know. He can never know." But, I know that I will never be able to look him in the eye, knowing I've kept this from him.

"This is going to kill him, Kate." Rome places his hands on his head, and breaths heavy.

"I don't know what to do, Rome. I know I can't face him, without telling him." I shake my head, knowing that I can't lie.

"Listen, you can't tell him Kate. You just can't. This will kill him. He will never forgive you, if he finds out." His words ring in my head. He will never forgive you. It causes me to sob uncontrollably, because I know, my marriage is over, and it's all because of me.

*

"Daddy?"

"Yeah?"

"Why are me and Mom not living with you anymore?" I swallow hard, as I look into the hurt filled eyes, of my beautiful daughter, who looks just like her mother. I ask myself, how do you tell your little girl, that this is for the best? That you want them here so bad, so much so when she's gone, I drink just to try ease the pain. How do you tell her, that her daddy has lied? A big lie, that if it comes out, it will only hurt them more? That either way our marriage will be over? I can't.

"Well, because sometimes Mom's, and Dad's are better apart." Is all I could manage to muster, but I know my daughter, and she has many questions unanswered.

"But, you and Mom love each other, don't you?" Fuck. Baby, I love your Mom more than life itself.

"We do, but sometimes love isn't enough, Kaida. It's hard to explain, but just know, that me and your Mom, love you very much. Just because we're not together, doesn't mean we don't love each other." She looked at me confused, before she nodded, and made her way to the kitchen for food. I was thankful, because I honestly felt like I was about to break down.

It had been 2 very long weeks. I've wanted to contact her, I've wanted to get out of the car, but I know it's for the best if we don't speak. I know I need to let her go, even if I don't want to. She will be happier without me, it's better this way for her, but dammit, the thought of someone else kissing her, touching her, doing all the things we used to, that thought alone eats me up. I don't know how I'd handle that. Half of me knows that I'd be happy, that she's happy, but the other half of me.. Well that half knows I'd want to kill whoever the bastard is. I trust that, that won't be for a long time. I know me, and Kate met under bad circumstances, I know we fucked quicker than we should have, I know that, but I also know that she's grown up, she wants something more meaningful than a fuck. The same way when I offered her coke, she declined, because life has changed for her, she doesn't want her old life anymore, and that makes me so proud of her. She's grown so much over the years, she's laughed more than she did back then, she was happier. I know she will be happy again, in time.

Me, on the other hand, life will never be the same without my girl. The only thing keeping me alive is Kaida, but that makes it harder, because she reminds me of Kate, she reminds me that life will never be the same again.