Step Brother 2: Jealousy (Completed)

Four

"I actually can't believe you right now. You spoke to him in Finland, and you never told me!" My blood was boiling, the thought of the two of them, alone it just made me feel angry, and betrayed, especially since she didn't tell me. Why? Why didn't she tell me?

"I didn't tell you, because I knew how you'd react. I can't even say his name around you, without you getting angry. How was I supposed to tell you, when I knew how you'd react." Her voice is soft, but I can definitely sense some anger.

"I'm your fucking husband. You should have told me either way!!" Like always, I storm out. I can't do this with her right now, I'm too angry, I don't want to say, or do something I might regret.

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I know I should have told him, I know it was wrong not to, but if you seen how he reacts whenever I, or anyone else spoke about Rome, you'd understand.

9 years ago...

For the last year, I've done nothing but existed. I don't know how to live without her. I've backed away from my father, because it's too hard to be around him, and Bree. The possibility of seeing her with him, I can't bare it.

She's pregnant, with his baby. All I can think about, is that, that baby should have been mine, not his. It should have been me and Kate getting married.

I haven't so much as touched another woman, I can't. All I want is her. How did my life become so fucked up? I hate myself for walking away from her. I hate the fact, that maybe if I never did, she would still belong to me.

I think of Rio often too, how I let her down. The guilt of it all literally eats me up inside.

I drink to try cope, but it doesn't help, if anything it makes me feel more alone.

I should be happy for her, and I am, but I also know that I could have made her happy too.

I know Logan, I know he loves her, but I also know who he really is. The man she hasn't yet to meet. I often wonder if she knew would she still be with him now? I tried telling her, but I guess she didn't want to know.

Ring ring..

"Dad, look sorry I haven't called you, I've just been kinda busy." Lies, we both know it's all lies.

"It's fine, I understand. Listen I just called to see how you are?" He always worries about me, I can't blame him, I just hate that I do it to him.

"I'm good Dad, just been taking some time to myself." Somehow, I always manage to sound okay, whenever I speak to anyone, when really I'm far from it.

"That's good to hear son." He sounds relieved.

"Ronaldo, she's had the baby. A baby girl."
My heart instantly sank. I know she's talking about Kate. Kate has given birth to Logan's baby.

The phone fell from my hand, I just stood there in a state of shock.

This is it, isn't it?
I mean I should have known, when she married him, that my chance was gone, but I always thought that she'd change her mind.
Now she's gave birth to his baby.