Step Brother 2: Jealousy (Completed)

Thirty Six

He looks at me filled with sadness.

He doesn't move, he just looks at me.

I want to run to him, I want to hold him, and never let him go, but I know I can't.

"Kate?" He chokes out. I squeeze my eyes shut, hoping it would all just be a dream.

"I wish I could remember, dad says he lied. He said you played a big part in my life, I've searched my mind for you, over and over, but I can't seem to find you."

He let's out a sigh, I can tell he's trying hard to hold back his tears.

"I really want to remember. Bree says it's been just as hard on you, as it has me. And I'm sorry, I wish I could remember."

I nod my head. His words are raw, and I can see the sincerity in his beautiful soft eyes.

"I just want you to be happy." I choked out. And it's true. Even if the reason for that happiness isn't me.

He lifts his head up, tilting it as he looks at me with tears in his eyes.

"You.. You were sad, I made you sad?" He says sounding confused. I bit my lip and nodded, not wanting to pressure him to remember.

"What did I do?" He asks softly.

"I forgave you a long time ago, Rome. Neither of us are perfect. We've both made mistakes." I say giving him a soft saddened smile.

"You've looked at me like that before, it's familiar, but I can't place it."

I stop the conversation, because I'm selfish. The fear of him hating me took over.

"I would like you to meet someone." I say knowing that I shouldn't, but I can't hide that part of him. He deserves to know at least this much.

I leave the room, making my way to Mom's room. I pick up Loreto who is sleeping peacefully, and I carry him downstairs.

As I get to the hallway, Ronaldo is standing there, I look at him, waiting for his approval, and he nods in agreement, that Rome should meet his son.

I enter the living room, and Rome's eyes meet Loreto straight away. I slowly approach him, before I gently place Loreto into his arms.

And it takes me straight back to the day he held Rio for the first time, in the very same spot.

And I can't help but cry, because of what is now just a memory of a child that will only live on in my heart, and because I feel partially complete. If my son has his father, that is enough for me.

"She will always be with you." He says softly, as he slips his finger into Loreto's fist.

I just burst into tears crying hard.
He remembered her.
He remembered her.

"You remember Rio?"

He lifts his head up, so his eyes meet mine.

"I didn't, until he was in my arms."

I didn't speak a word, I was afraid I'd say too much.

"He's your son." I whisper.

"My son?" He asks smiling.

"Our son." I simply say.

And he done the unexpected. He lay Loreto in his crib in the living room, before he slowly approached me.

He looked me in the eyes for a moment, before he leaned in and kissed me ever so delicately.

After a moment our kiss grew more passionate, like we were trying to show each other just how much we love each other.

But, I break apart our kiss.

Because, I know it isn't the right time.

"What's wrong?" He asks with a worried expression.

"You should remember everything first. Then you can decide if you still want me."

I turn my back to him, reliving my decision all those years ago.

"Kate.. " he says pausing.

"I know about you and Logan."

I turn sharply on my feet, in shock.

"I lied. When you walked into this living room, I had already remembered. I guess.. I just wanted to pretend for a moment none of it happened...  You see I was never truly honest with you... When you married him, I tried to kill myself. I didn't want to live. I spent a year in a hospital. Then after being released, I tried to kill myself again a month later.. I was in and out of hospital for years. Eventually that's where I met Hayley, she has a breakdown when she lost her son and husband in a car crash. She couldn't cope. We got close. I tried to be with her, hoping I'd get over you, but it didn't work. We both agreed we were only supposed to be friend's. She hadn't got over the loss of her husband, and I hadn't got over you choosing him. So she told me I needed to see you, I needed closure. I didn't plan to see you in Finland, but when I did I told Hayley, I told her how unhappy you looked. That's when she talked me into going home. She offered to come, so that I could save face, incase you didn't regret choosing him. So no, Kate. I want you. Even after everything. I forgive you. I fucking love you with my life."

I threw myself at him, and kissed him hard, with tears running down my face.
I soon realised though, I wasn't the only one crying. Our salty tears mixed together.

"I thought about you every night, but I thought there was no going back." I said remembering so many nights I cried myself to sleep, as I pictured his face when I chose Logan over him. An image I'll never truly erase, no matter how many times he says he forgives me.

I wasn't sure what the future held for us, but all I knew was, I didn't care as long as he was by my side.

...

I lay in bed beside him.
I didn't regret him, not for a single second, but I couldn't help but wonder, was our relationship healthy?

Because I'm sure anyone would say it's toxic.

Am I a bad person for being with him?

I had no answers, but what I did have, was a full heart when he was here with me.

And I know one thing for sure, and that is he loves me, unconditionally.

This is not the end of the story, however there is only a few chapters left. I haven't decided how many, but I'd say around 2-4 roughly 😊