Step Brother 2: Jealousy (Completed)

Nineteen

I don't know how much more of this I can take. I'm being backed into a corner, further and further. I'm a coward for running. I'm a coward for not fighting back from the start. I'm ashamed to say that I allowed him to beat, and rape me. Now, it's not just me who is at risk. It's my children.

I don't care how tough he is. I will fight until my last breath for my babies. I won't go down without a fight.

I'm sick of running. It's getting me nowhere. He's already achieved me not seeing my little girl. How does he feel okay wanting to cause me more pain?

He's a scumbag. A horrible nasty man. I wish.. I wish I never loved him. I wish I never fell for the evil man, behind that loving exterior. But, how was I to know?
I couldn't have. What I should have known was, that people make mistakes. And Rome's wasn't enough for me to walk away, he deserved a chance. After all he had given me chances too.

But, now I'm out of options.
I don't have a choice anymore.
I need to face him.
I need to fight my own battle.

I can risk the life of myself, and my unborn baby, or I could be a coward and never see Kaida again. Or worse lose her to him.

Maybe now that he knows I'm pregnant, he won't kill me? Maybe at the least he will wait until the baby is born, to have his way with me?

I don't care what happens me, once Kaida is safe. That's all I want. It's all I hope for.

That, and Rome. I could never forgive myself if Rome died because of me.

I was in deep thought when I realised, I hadn't spoke a word to him. He knows I overheard the phone call, but I haven't responded. I know he will only talk me out of coming face to face with Logan, but I have no choice.

"You know I realised something." I whisper to him. He tilts his head ask he looks at me. Like he knows I'm over thinking again. "I realised that the problem is, when it comes to young girls, or even older girls, they don't choose the good guy." He sighs, because he knows what I'm trying to say. "You were, still are the good guy. Logan he was the bad boy. I chose the worst bad boy of them all. It's such an obvious choice. You know those you see in a movie, or a book or something. The girl thinks she can change the bad boy. That he will all of a sudden treat her different than he did all those other girls. He had a girlfriend when we first messed around. Yet I still chose him. It's pretty fucked up. But, the young naive girl I was back then, didn't see it. I was stupid." He shakes his head in disagreement. "Nah. It's not stupid at all. If I remember right, there was a time I thought I could fix you. But, I realised over time, that was something you had to do yourself." I bite my lip as I try hold in the guilt I feel.

"How did you manage to forgive me for what I done?"

"Well.. That was easy really. It's not like you chose to hurt me. The same way I didn't choose to hurt you. Sometimes our decisions can hurt others, but what feels best at the time well.. We shouldn't feel guilty for that. I ran away twice. That was a choice I made, knowing it would hurt you, but I chose to be selfish. You fell in love. That's not a choice. That's something that just happens. We have no control over that. So yeah, there wasn't anything to forgive. It was him I was angry with, because he knew who you were. You didn't know who he was." I have no words, so instead I just lean over and hug him tightly.

...

"So.. There is something I need to speak to you about." He leans up a little, and I can tell he knows what I want to talk about. "He knows. We can't keep running. So I need a plan. With or without you."