A Notch in Her Heart (A Pierce the Veil Fanfiction)

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Valerie's POV

I'm lonely. I'm all by myself and I'm not used to it. I want someone beside me, but I kicked Vic out his room a while ago.

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"Val, please open the door! We need to talk." Vic had been banging on the door for quite some time and I was starting to get a migraine.

"WHAT!?" I screamed as I swung the door open. Up until now, I was keeping it together. No tears, no cracks in my voice, no nothing. But the minute I saw his face, the same thing happened when I usually see his face.

My heart started racing, my expression softened, my palms got sweaty and I remembered. I remembered the love I have for him and how great it made me feel and I remembered all those great memories and I yearned to be in his arms. But instead of making me happy, all these things made me sad.

All the things that used to make happy and giddy with love, now break my heart repeatedly because of one action. Vic cheated on me and now it feels like everything we ever went through is voided.

I looked up into those pleading brown eyes that seemed to beg me to listen. He opened his mouth to say something, I raised my hand to slap him.

"Ow! Come on Valerie! If you could just stop being so stubborn and just listen to me, you would see that I can ex-"

"Explain what, Vic!? Explain your cheating!? I thought you would never do that to me, I thought you loved me!" Vic let out a frustrated groan.

"I do! If you would just give m-"

"Give you what!? I've already given you my heart and look where I am now! You know what? Just leave me alone." As the tears left their mark on my face, I shut te door.

Vic stayed outside my door for a while. He tried talking to me, coaxing me to open the door, and even bribing me. But it didn't work. It wouldn't work. He had cheated on me, and nothing could ever right that wrong.

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Now I'm here. Sitting in my room, dried tears on my face. I went to bed, but it's three in the morning and I woke up in the middle of the night. Big surprise, right?

Sitting in the dark, wondering where things went wrong. Sitting in the dark hoping for a better tomorrow. Sitting in the dark over thinking until all your thoughts come to a complete stop and all you hear is the nothing. All you hear is the silence.

'Deafening silence' is such a true oxymoron. Silence is as quiet as it gets but also as loud as it can get. The more abrupt the ceasing of the noise is, the louder the silence becomes, and the longer it lingers.

My thoughts were loud. They screamed at me, calling me names, taunting me and caving in on me. Filling me with sadness and making me cry. I cried a silent cry and all at once, my thoughts halted. I was left alone to listen to the silence. To let it engulf me and eat me alive.

But I didn't want to be alone the way I thought I did.

So I went downstairs.

I didn't know what to expect as I descended the stairs. Hopefully something to do to take my mind off of Vic. It's so weird how one action changes everything. First I used to love thinking about him but now I loathe the feeling I get when he crosses my mind.

But of course, who do I run into when I reach the bottom of the stairs?

"Valerie, please just talk to me. I have to explain this to you."