Swear || a.i [editing in progress]

UNEDITED

"Luke?" a soft voice that belonged to a girl said. She sounded timid and shocked.

"Surprise, Cassidy?" Elliot says more of a question than an exclamation.

I slowly put the pieces together. That girl is Cassidy and the 'boyfriend' she was talking about is non other than my big brother Elliot. What a small world.

"You told me you liked 5 Seconds of Summer and I wanted to surprise you today, babe." Oh God.

"Babe." Luke repeated in a growl.

"Sorry, is there a problem here?" Elliot frowned. He looked at me, then at Ashton and Calum. Michael stood awkwardly in a corner, sharing the same expression as I did. I guess Luke told him.

"Cass, did you not tell your boyfriend that you were talking to me?" Luke said the word boyfriend as if it put a bad taste in his mouth.

Cassidy shook her head and looked down on the floor guiltily.

"Wait, what? You were talking to him?" Elliot caught up. I sighed and rubbed my eyes.

"Did you know about this?" Ashton whispered into my ear so no one else heard.

I nodded tentatively. I saw Ashton frown from the corner of my eye.

"So Elliot is that 'boyfriend' you told me about." Luke stated. He took a few deep breaths and picked his stuff up.

This was just like Calum three weeks ago.

"Luke." Cassidy says pleadingly.

"Just leave me be." Luke replies a little softer than before. He stomped out of the house, leaving everyone stunned.

"I think I should go too." Cassidy tells Elliot. Elliot expression turned into one of urgency and shock.

"Don't worry, I'm not going to chase after Luke. I just need some time alone." she sighs and pecks my brother on the cheek before walking out.

"We should get going too. We have a flight to catch tomorrow." Michael yawns.

A thick tense atmosphere filled the room. I wanted to say something but I couldn't really register anything in my brain.

"Rest well, Bay. We will figure this out." Ashton says before giving me a pat on my shoulder.

Yes, a fucking pat.

The remaining members of 5SOS left the house leaving me and my brother alone.

"How are you?" Elliot says, sounding tired and sad. I'm sure he was confused,sad and frustrated at this moment and I didn't want to aggravate him.

"I'm not so good. Just gonna catch some sleep. Talk tomorrow?" I suggested. He nodded his head and went up to his room.

I walked back to my own room and crashed onto my bed, feeling muscle fatigue and pain.

I closed my eyes and tried to ignore everything around me and just go to sleep.

But I just couldn't.

I couldn't sleep again and I was really really tired.

I grunted in frustration as I started to cry. I was so angry at myself. Why can't I just sleep?

This sucks.

I sunk deeper into my pillow and closed my eyes again. I counted some sheep and thought about how life might turn out.

I was thinking about that fantasy that I would never have with Ansel and Ashton or Calum.

Okay shut up brain. Stop thinking about them.
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Trying to get Ashton and Calum out my mind had been the hardest thing ever.