Secret Love (A Severus Snape Romance)

Chapter 22: Panic

I walk out of the common room and find my way to Snape's secret room. I knock on the door but don't  hear an answer, like no one is inside. Where the hell is he then? Hanging out with other professors?

I'm already about to turn around but then Snape opens the door and I run into his arms. He pulls me into his room and makes sure to lock the door before he says:

"What is it, (Y/N)? Has something happened?"

"I think I might be - oh God, it can't be true", I say and hold back my tears.

"Calm down, young lady", he says and I sit down on his bed.

"Did we use any kind of protection when we... You know... The other night..." I murmur nervously.

"What is this foolishness? Do you think you're pregnant, darling?" he sits down next to me and looks at me even more seriously than he usually does.

"I don't know!" I cry. "I mean, I've been nauseous lately so I could be... And I'm pretty sure we were so stupid that we didn't even use protection, you know?"

"No, we forgot." Snape looks just as shocked as I feel. I'd really need his support right now but apparently he's too shocked to be there for me.

"I'm fucking freaking out", I say, tears running down my face. "And the fact that you act so cold every now and then doesn't help like, at all."

"I'm sorry, (Y/N). It's not easy to love you, but I do, and now that you know it I can't deny it anymore. I guess there's nothing we can do about that. But yeah, honey, what do you think we'll do now?"

"Good Lord, Snape, I have never heard you say the word honey before!" I say and can't help but laugh.

"Shut your mouth!" he mutters and blushes slightly. Oh shit.

"Well, anyways, I think I should check it first", I say, back with my serious face.

"I can go buy you a pregnancy test today and then you can do it tonight", he says and touches my hair gently. "And whatever the result may be, we well get through it together and in the end, everything will be fine."

"It's so hard to read you sometimes, Severus", I say and sigh. "But I can't help loving you."

He kisses me passionately and then pushes me away unwillingly.

"I'll go now, you can wait here. I will be back soon, my love", he says and kisses my forehead softly before he goes.

(half an hour later:)

I apparently fell asleep on his comfy bed, because I wake up confused when he opens the door and comes in. At first I'm confused and not sure where I am - until he comes up to me and touches my hair with his strong hands, and I look into his gorgeous black eyes that make me feel safer than anything or anyone else.

"You fell asleep, you filthy little girl!" he says playfully. 

"Yeah, so what? You're so fucking weird", I giggle.

"Close that beautiful hole on your face and stop being a fool. Now, here's the test. I guess you'll know better yourself how to use it...? The bathroom is there, you see that little door next to my wardrobe?"

"Wait, you have your own bathroom, too?" I ask, surprised. Maybe I shouldn't even be surprised, of course he has his own bathroom. He probably has his own kitchen and garden too.

"Yes. Is there a problem?"

"No, not at all", I say and laugh a little. He gives me the test and I walk into the bathroom. Taking a pregnancy test is not as easy as I thought it would be, but after a few ridiculous tries I finally manage.

Now the answer is right in front of my eyes, and I can't look at it. This could change my whole life. This could change everything between me and Snape.

I take a deep breath and look.