Secret Love (A Severus Snape Romance)

Chapter 4: Dark Eyes

[Previously: I was too nosy about Snape so he is probably now mad at me.]

I'm eating lunch with Chris and Glen. Glen is talking about his annoying big brother.

"I hate him so much", she says. I would honestly be so much happier if I were the only child. "

"That's not really fair, Glen, and you know that", I say quietly.

"You know, Y/N, we're so sick of your sh*t", she says ands gives me an evil look. She can be very annoying sometimes but usually I don't mind that.

"That wasn't a very nice thing to say, Glen", Chris says.

"But I mean really, think about it. She's always crying over her dead brother and she's so distant from real life. I don't think I can stand that much longer anymore. Nothing will ever get him back so better just let it be and live your goddamn life!" Glen exclaims.

"Yeah, I know I'll never have him back, thank you for the information", I say sarcastically and stand up.

"Hey, Y/N, don't go! We can surely talk about this", Chris says.

"I've done enough talking", I reply, my voice cracking as I burst into a tears and run away from the canteen into the garden.

I sit down underneath an apple tree and I feel like I can't get enough air in my lungs. I close my eyes and take a few deep breaths, and I feel better. I hear my brother's laughter inside my head. After a few more breaths I don't hear it anymore, and I open my eyes.

Snape is standing in front of me and I'm blushing a little. How and why did he come here? I'd like to ask him but I'm too tired to care.

"Are you alright, Y/N?" he asks me.

"Yeah, I'm fine."

"I noticed you had an intense conversation with your friends in the canteen."

I can feel my heart rate accelerating.
"Were you spying on me?"

"It was certainly just by accident, I can assure you. I would never do such a thing on purpose", he replies undoubtedly convincingly.

"And why would I believe you, sir?"

"Don't you trust me?" he's almost smiling.

"I trust you", I reply.

"You know you can't hold on to the past forever, right? You need to let it go. That is the only way you will ever be able to survive."

"Well, thank you so much for that piece of advice. I really appreciate it, sir." I stand up and look at him in the eyes. Oh my God, his eyes are so beautiful and dark...

"Maybe... you don't have to call me sir anymore, Y/N."

"What... Why?" I'm genuinely surprised and confused.

"I just don't think we're that different... You know what I mean?"

I'm not actually a 100% sure that I know what he means, but I nod anyway. He looks so beautiful under the blue sky, looking at me with those mysterious eyes... I'd love to kiss him right now but I am fully aware of how inappropriate it would be so I'm not going to do that. I decide to hug him instead. At first he seems very surprised but then he puts his arms around me. Somehow he makes me feel like home the way I have never felt like home and it's very strange and it makes my heart pound extremely fast. My head lies on his warm chest and I can feel his strong hands around my waist. I'd just want to stay right here forever but I know I can't.

And in this very moment, I finally realize I might be falling for my teacher... Whoops.