Secret Love (A Severus Snape Romance)

Chapter 7: Another Sleepless Night

It's been two days since I found out about Draco and Harry. As I promised them, I haven't told anyone about their little secret. I've been trying to get Snape's attention but it's very difficult because it seems like he thinks I'm super annoying, which is sort of understandable.

Now I'm having another sleepless night. Instead of going to the corridors or stalking Snape, I get on the roof and look up to the stars. I'm not sure what I'm feeling right now. Maybe a bit of sorrow. Love. Loss. Or maybe it's nothing? Maybe I'm feeling absolutely nothing. I can't tell.

It's chilling up here and the coldness is sending shivers down my spine. I'm not crying like I usually do on nights like this. I think the world looks absolutely beautiful from up here. It's dark so I can't see that clearly, but at least I can see the woods and the water reflecting the light of the stars. This is the kind of moment I want to keep in my memories forever.

I look down and realize I am actually very high up from the ground. A strange thought comes up in my head: what would happen if I jumped from here? I'd most likely die. Do I want to die? Maybe I do. But I can't, I can't leave my parents, I could never do anything like that to them.

I'm gasping from shock. How can I even think about doing something like that?

I hear someone's coming but I honestly couldn't care less. Now he's already standing beside me.

"Go to sleep, Y/N", Snape says. Of course it's him.

"No I won't, Severus", I say without even looking at him.

"Don't you dare talk to me like that!"

"Just leave me alone", I say. I'm holding my knees with my arms because I feel like I need to literally hold myself to keep it together.

He keeps his mouth shut for a few seconds, standing still, and then he sits down next to me. I can feel his warmth and I can hear every breath he takes. And there it is, my heart is pounding so fast again like it could explode any second.

I rest my head on his shoulder ready for him to resist, but surprisingly enough he puts his arm around me and the air doesn't feel cold anymore.  He smells good...

"Severus?"

"Yes?" His irresistible voice is turning me on and I just want to kiss him so bad.

"You know, I wanted to say something, but I don't know how to put it into words... Some things are so hard to explain..." God, I'm so close to him. I'm staring at his eyes and he's staring at mine. For some reason I don't feel awkward at all, I feel right and good.

"Yes, I understand", he says. His lips are so close to mine that I can feel his breath on my lips.

I kiss his soft lips and he answers to the kiss passionately. He's holding me even closer, and I'm running my fingers through his beautiful black hair. We kiss again. And again.

"We shouldn't be be doing this", he murmurs after a while.

"I know", I say. "But I can't stop thinking about you, Severus. I can see you the way no one else does."

"You do, though... But we really need to stop. You have to go to sleep, you are a student after all." He stands up and helps me to get up too. He walks me to my dormitory and no matter what he or anyone says I feel so happy, despite everything. I think I might be in love...