Through the Dark (Harry Styles) [Bk. 1] *Editng*

78. Second Thoughts

Author's Note

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Elizabeth’s POV

I blink at him, his last words playing over and over again in a loop in my head.

“Wait, so you like to kill people?” I breathed.

“Yes” Harry replies with no hesitation, my heart drops and I gasp. “It’s in my nature, I can’t help it. However I try my best to avoid it.”

My heart sinks even further, as if it was possible. Wait a minute, so if he likes to kill people does that mean that the real reason why he even went after me was because he wanted me to be his next victim?

I stand up from the bed and walk a few paces away from him running my hands through my hair trying to sort out my thoughts. I could feel rather than see Harry’s eyes looking at me.

“Elizabeth, what’s wrong?” he asks and I shook my head turning around to face him. I lick my lower lip trying to process what I am about to say.

“When was the last time you actually killed someone?”  I ask, bravely I think.

“I believe it was a few years before I came to live here.” Harry says and his face looks worried. “Why are you asking me that? Elizabeth, what’s the matter?” he asks and I hear something other than anger from before. Panic? Fear?

“Harry, do you even love me?” I ask looking up at him and he gapes at me in horror.

“Of course I love you. Why would you ask me that? “His eyes widen in alarm.

“Well, you did try to kill me” I reminded him my hands knotted together giving him a slight shrug.

“I know I did…that wasn’t me.” He shook his head. “I didn’t mean to do that and-“

“Did you just get to know me so you could kill me?”

“What?No.” Harry reaches for me but I instinctively take a step back. Harry drops his hands and stands frozen in place. His pink lips parted slightly and he blinks at me panic written all over his features.  

“Are you leaving?”  He whispers to me his voice breaking at the end of his sentence and I stare at him saying nothing, trying to regain my composure.

I open my mouth to speak but words fail me. Harry looks like I knocked the wind out of him.

“You can’t leave” Harry pleads.I need time; I need time for all of this to sink in. I mean I almost died like twenty minutes ago.

“Harry…I…” I struggle with my words not knowing what to say. I don’t know what to do.  Harry shakes his head back and forth at me as if he is trying to shake this moment away like a bad twisted dream.

“No. NO!” he says.

“I…”

Harry looks at me with such a pained expression and glances around the room as if it would give him some form of inspiration to speak.

“Elizabeth, you can’t leave!” The strain in his voice rips at my heart. What am I supposed to do? In a way I feel betrayed. Can anyone really blame me for being this worried? Yes, I lied to him but his secret is something that I should have known about a long time ago.  I don’t want to leave him; it hurts just thinking about it. Do I really have a choice?

“You can’t go. Elizabeth, I love you!”

“I love you too, Harry, it’s just-“

“No!” He yells out in exasperation. He takes a few steps towards me then stops, moving his hands to his hair and gives his hair a tug. “I know I am not the best person in the world Elizabeth, I do. I really do understand that, but please you can’t leave me”

I stare at him and unwilling tears start to fall down my face.  What am I doing? My subconscious is telling me to leave but the rest of me is aching me to stay.

“This can’t be happening!” Harry yells shaking his head, more to himself than to me.

“Harry it’s just… I love you, there is no doubt about that but I don’t know how much of all of this I can take” I admitted. I bit on my lower lip and closed my eyes for a brief moment then opened them back up before I spoke.  “Harry, I think it’s best if-“

“No!” Harry breathes, his eyes panicked filled with tears and suddenly drops down to his knees.  I look at him in complete shock as he lowers his head and covers his face with both of his hands. What the fuck did I do?!