As time passes <CHANLIX>

Please don't

Chan

I was just trying to have a good time and make Felix feel comfortable. I thought if I kissed him it would distract him from the surroundings of the party, however it just made him more hyper aware of it.

I didn't mean to upset him and I didn't want him to be uncomfortable. However I kinda wanted to show off to my friends. I wanted to show them, I Bang Chan finally had Lee Felix... sorta.

When Felix pulled the old me. The cocky, inconsiderate Chan came out again and I guess Felix didn't like that that's why he called me an asshole.

"I thought you said Felix was finally yours, it doesn't look like it to me"

Arg great..

"Shut up BamBam. It's just Felix isn't great at showing affection in public places.."

"Yeahhh great excuse... all I see is that little Lee Felix is still on the market... I might get some. See you around Chan."

What? Who does he think he is thinking of Felix like he's some sort of prize or object!

"I don't think so.." I grab BamBam arm and make sure he's facing me. "You better not go anywhere near Felix.."

BamBam pulls his arm away and looks outside before he turns back to me with a smirk.

"Seems like someone has already made their move... I'm going to get a drink and chan when you stop being so weird you can hang out with me again.."

BamBam walks away and I look outside...

Felix

"Hey lix can we talk..."

I freeze at the sound of the voice behind me. Maybe it wasn't a good idea to be by myself.

"I haven't seen you since-"

"What since you slapped me, Yeah there's a reason for that. So if you don't mind I'm going to leave."

"Hey Wait!"

I feel hyunjin gently take my hand. I turn to face him and his face expressed sorrow or regret.

"I need to tell you something.. if you'll let me.."

I take one more look at his face before I decide to sit down and listen to what he has to say.

"Okay, I'm listening, but be quick... I don't want anyone thinking the wrong thing."

"Thank.." he sits up straight to gain confidence, but I can still tells he's nervous from the constant fidgeting. "Well first off you don't need to fret about people thinking the wrong thing because I actually found myself a boyfriend.. his name is Jeongin." I see hyunjin smile shyly as he talks about his boyfriends and it puts a smile on my face as well. Maybe hyunjin is such a bad guy maybe I just caught him on a bad day. "Anyway.. I wanted to say sorry... it was just frustrated that day and I thought the only way I could feel better was to harm you.."

Hyunjins words caught my attention. Why would he want to hurt me?

"Why?"

"I feel so horrible Felix. I'm so so sorry.. for what I've done to you. I wanted to hurt you because of Changbin..."

The name make me feel shivers down my spine, but what does he have to do with this?

"What does it have to do with Changbin?"

"I was the one Changbin cheated on you with... I was the one on the roof... I was the one he kissed. I'm sorry Felix"

It was weird.. it didn't feel any anger towards Hyunjin, instead I felt a massive weight lift off my shoulders.

I look at hyunjin who had his head down and I wrap my arm around him.

"Thank you for telling me hyunjin, I really appreciate it. Now stop being sad about me and go have fun with your boyfriend."

"Thanks Felix. I don't deserve your forgiveness, but thank you so much.."

Hyunjin hugs me once more before he runs over to his boyfriend. I smile at them and go back to looking over at the pond.

Then it hits me, chan hasn't come out to say sorry or even talk to me. Does he really not care?

Maybe he isn't what I thought he was? Maybe he hasn't changed..

I might as well go back inside. It was getting cold and I needed another drink anyway.

As I stepped back into the crowded house I heard the bass blaring and people chatting. As I walked through I heard some people cat call me which they obviously found funny because I was a cat.

"OMG FELIX!"

"Hey Seungmin! Sorry I didn't tell you Chan picked me up."

Seungmin gave Woojin 'the look'.

"There's nothing going on between us. He's actually acting like a totally dickhead tonight"

"Yeah, but you have huge feelings for the dickhead."

I roll my eyes at Seungmin. Now I know why I was hesitant telling Seungmin about my feelings for Chan, subconscious me knew he would take the piss.

"Yeah whatever..."

"Hey where is he anyway?"

I look around the kitchen and I don't see him, he's probably with his muscle head friends. 'I won't leave you' my ass...

"I don't know, but I do know I need to go to the toilet, so if you'll excuse me."

I wave a quick bye to my friends and head up stairs where I'm certain there will be a bathroom.

As I went upstairs the music downstairs blurred and it sounded kinda quiet apart from the creaking and thumping I could hear from the bedrooms.

I listen through all the doors to make sure if any were free. Almost all of them were in use apart from one. Which I couldn't hear any noise from, so I suspected it wasn't in use.

I opened the door and as I entered I felt... I don't actually know how I felt, but I knew.. I knew I wasn't okay.