As time passes <CHANLIX>

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Chan

"Hey Jisung! Calm down. What's wrong?"

I was shocked by my friends behaviour, I was also extremely worried. He was crying, but not just a few tears, he was crying a river. I haven't seen him like this since the day Minho and him broke up.

"Ch..Chan he's.. he's back!.."

I was utterly confused and I was still trying to calm myself down because I hated it when my friends were upset.

"Jisung you need to calm down... come sit down-"

"I can't... chan he's back! Fe..Felix is back!"

In that moment....

This one right now, right this second.

I felt all my emotions explode inside me like beautiful destruction.

"Jisung.. please tell me you're not joking.. please.. pl..please.."

I started to break down. I felt my legs shake and my heart tremble.

"Wh..why would I joke about this!"

I run up to Jisung and capture him into a hug. We stayed like this for a while just sobbing together.

———////———

"Chan? CHAN!!"

I was suddenly awoken by a loud scream...

I guess it was a dream..

Fuck and I'm crying.

"Woah man why are you crying? Is everything okay? You normally don't sleep on the job or in general.."

I run my eyes and focus on Woojin who has just come in. He was right I never sleep on the job, but I guess I've got a lot on at the moment and my usual 3 hours of sleep have become zero..

"It's nothing I just had one of those dreams again... however this one felt super real"

"Maybe it's some sort of Holy Spirit telling you something.."

Woojin likes to lighten the mood and I appreciate that but it'll have to be some sort of God to make Felix reappear in front of me again.

"I hope.."

"Just keep believing Chan. Anyway it's late, we should head back to the dorms and get some rest. You have a busy day tomorrow"

I nod and start to pack up my things. My neck killed and my back aches from bend in the same position all day.

I'm glad I have Woojin always looking out for me because if I didn't I would've worked myself to death.

We walked back to the dorms quickly considering we didn't want to caught by fan girls or boys. I was way too tired to interact with our fans, I would on a normal day, but I'm way too exhausted. I do feel bad, but I know my fans wouldn't want me sleep deprived and they want me healthy.

"Night Woojin"

"Night Chan"

Felix
*beep.. beep.. beep.. be—"

"Arg Shut up!"

It's morning already..

"Hey Jackson wake up— oh yeah... you're not here.."

That was odd. Not having Jackson by my side make me feel kinda lost.. but at the same time it makes me feel different, like I have some sort of freedom.

"Maybe I should call him"

I look at the time and realise I don't have enough time to.

"Oh shit it's already 7:15. I'm meant to be ready and waiting by 8:00."

I rush out of bed and get in the shower. I quickly rinse my body and dry off.

Thank god I prepared an outfit before hand, otherwise I'd be super fucked.

"Shit.. shit... shit!"

Come Felix quicker...

I pulled up my white basketball shirt and put on my most comfortable jumper. It was only the first day of training and I knew we would be working out a lot and dancing a lot, so I decided to wear something breathable.

I slip on my socks then sneakers. I did a little bit of makeup to cover my freckles, so the other boys won't think I'm a freak.

I style my blonde hair, so it looks kinda fluffy and cute.

"Alright Felix I think you're ready!"

I give myself a pep talk in the mirror and make sure I look presentable.

I look at my watch, the time was now 7:49. I had 11 minutes to get to YPJ. I was almost out of the room, but my eyes landed on my desk which was near the door.

It was a photo of me and Minho. We look so young and happy.

"I hope you're okay..."

I smile at the photo as I think about the memories we had.

"I'm going to make you proud and one day I'll see you again and I'll make up for all those years I burdened you."

I smile brightly and walk out of my room.

This was it I'm going to make all my family and friends proud. We may not cross paths, but if they ever see me on TV doing what I love the most I hope it makes them happy.

I look at my watch once more as I'm crossing the street.

"Fuck 7:55 already.."

I mumble underneath my breath. I start to run to YPJ it was only a couple of minutes away from the dorms, but I still don't want to be late for my first day.

I rush into the lobby and go straight to the receptionist.

"Um.. hi I'm Lee Felix. I'm here for the trainee trials"

She looks at me with worry before she quickly looks in her books.

"Lee Felix?" I nod "Alright you've only got a few minutes, but if you take the elevator you should get here in time. The practise room is the 3rd door on the left on the 4th floor. Now go before you're late"

I smile at the kind receptionist before I run to the elevator. I click the button and wait anxiously for the elevator to come down to my floor.

"Come on come on.."

*ding*

Thank god

I let the people out of the elevator before I rush in and press my floor button then the close door button.

I watch the door close, but I see someone rush to my closing elevator. He had a panicked face... but the doors closed before he could get there.

He looked kinda familiar...

But it couldn't be him.. that guy had grayish brown hair.

Anyway I have more import— no I just have more things to worry about right now.

*ding*

Finally.

So it was the 3rd door on the left side.

"1..2..3"

Here we go.

"Sorry I'm late— no way.."

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