As time passes <CHANLIX>

It was never over

Felix

After my confession and start of my plan Chan took me back home. However instead of feeling good about putting Chan to the test, I felt like crying because I felt so bad after I told him. He looked so sad and I felt awful.

Maybe this isn't a good idea.... no Felix you have to do this.

I need reassurance. I need to know that Chan really does love and it's not some illusion and my hearts not going to break again and I'll have him in my life as mine as my boyfriend as my best friend... as my everything..

Anyway it's 3 days after I saw Chan. I've been to the trainee camps since then and Chan hasn't been there, but Jisung told me that he's busy writing and producing songs for one of our senior groups.

Loads of people have dropped out. I don't get it, why would you just give up on your dreams? I find the trainee programme really exciting and I've seen Seungmin and Woojin again... oh and also Hyunjin and his boyfriend Jeongin. We all went for lunch, but Chan couldn't make it...

Everybody said he's normally like this, however they also said he was in a better mood. According to Woojin, Chan isn't staying up till late at night and he's getting enough rest.

"Hey felix. You okay? You seem to spacing out a lot."

I look up and I see Jackson. I smile at him as I sit on the rowing machine in the gym. A the trainees were having their daily exercises and of course Jackson was the instructor. Since we broke up Jackson seems more childish and free. I guess he couldn't be like this because he had to be strong and mature for me. I'm glad he's finally being his true self and I've seen him hanging with Jinyoung and they are so cute!

"Yeah I'm good.. I'm just thinking about some stuff, but don't worry I'll focus from now on!"

I cheer but I don't really feel like cheering. I feel Jackson back hug me and I feel much better, I'm glad he's still my friend I don't know what I would do without him.

"It's chan? Isn't it? Don't worry lix you'll see him soon. Just keep up the good work and make him proud."

I feel a weight come off of my shoulder. I really need some words of encouragement. But I still miss him, however next time I see him I won't him to see amazed.

Please come see me soon Channie...

Chan

"Chan are the songs done yet we need to get them in the studio soon. I don't have all day.."

Here's Bambam for the 3rd time today coming into my office like a little brat and demanding his songs, but thankfully I've finally finished. I don't have to see his face until the next comeback.

"Here. Now go to the studio and leave me alone. I'm busy"

I shove the hard drive into his hands and he smirk and walks out. Finally I can breath. No more people. No more stress. Right now I'm going to win my Felix back, I've thought of so many ideas and plans. I can't wait to see him again.

I get out of my office and head to the dance studio, the trainees could be there, but I don't have their schedules yet, so I'm guessing.

"Oh hey Chan. Have you finally finished?"

When I entered the studio I was greeted by Jisung, but no one else was there, so they must be at the gym.

"Yeah, i finished a couple of minutes ago. Now I'm going to find Felix. Is he at the gym?"

Jisung smiles widely and nods.

"Yeah. And before you go Chan me and the guys including Felix are going out wanna come?"