Zayn Malik
"Zeee!! Please come out. Talk to me, this is not right" Harry bangs my door for the hundredth time and I don't reply again.
Why does this always happens to me? God! Why do you always do this to me? I don't understand what I did that I go through all the pain in the world. Everytime I'm happy, even for a minute it doesn't last long. I just can't anymore. Do I really deserve this?
Alex! I want you to be only mine. My Angel. But she chose Liam. She chose the one she wanted to get married to. She obviously chose the one who she spent almost her whole life with. Why was I so dumb. I should have seen the truth. Why would she even choose me. Why would she even want me. I'm nothing but a fucking looser.
I love her. I still do, and I wont stop loving her even if she doesn't. Fuck! Since when did I become so vulnerable, why did you even enter my life. I knew this would happen. I knew she would leave one day. Why did I let myself fall for her, I shouldn't have let her in. I should have shut her out of my personal life and me. I'm such a fool.
But now I can't just forget her. I can't! I can't even think straight right now. I want her so bad. I want her back in my arms. I want to see that smile again. I want to see those beautiful eyes again. I want to hear that sweet voice call my name again.
I want just a little bit of her heart!
"Zayn Please!" Harry calls out again. "P-please Zee!" I can hear his voice crack. Fuck! I always do this to him. He's always the one in pain because of me. Harry doesn't deserve me. No one deserves the stupid shit I am.
I rub my watery eyes and stand up, looking at the mirror I notice I really look like shit, but then it's Harry, there's nothing to hide from him. I walk towards the door and open it.
"Zeee!" He comes barging into my room and gives me the tightest hug ever.
"Talk to me please!" He looks at me with tears.
"There's nothing to talk anymore Hareeh. I'm fine" I say in a monotone voice.
"Zayn don't do this again. Please don't shut me out again!" He cries. He doesn't deserve this! Don't do this again Zayn.
"Ha-harreh" I choke on my voice. "S-stop!" I break down in tears.
"I'm s-sorry Haz. You..you don't deserve this. I'm r-realy sorreh. I'm not gonna cut you off a-again. I'll never do that. I'm a shit person for doing that to you. Please forgive me" I cry.
"Zee shut up and give me hug" he breaks a smile and pushes me giving me hug.
"I want her Hareeh!" I cry into his arms falling down as he sits down with me pulling me closer to him.
"I really need her. I don't want to live without her. She's mine right. You told me she feels the same way about me. Loueeh told she feels the same way. Then why did she do this? Why did she leave me alone. She. Promised she'll always be there for me. I can't take this pain harreh. I can't! Please make it go" I cry harder.
"Zayn! Please stop crying. There's a lot more in life. Maybe she wasn't the one for you. Maybe there's someone ever better for you, who will never break your heart like this. There will be someone who loves you more than me in the world Zee. You can't just give up on life like this. I know what you feel for her is so much more than I can imagine but-"
"I don't care about anyone. I just want her Hareeh! She gave my lifeless soul life. She taught me how to breath again. She taught me to smile, to laugh, to look at the good part of life and now she's gone. She hates me. She said she hates me Hareeh!" I cry.
