You Want Me? Beg For Me [Niam]

~Day 1~

Day 1: 11/13/12


The challenge has started.

Right after leaving the school I had gone straight home not even bothering to wait for my friends. I guess they heard about the whole thing because they never called or texted. They understood that I needed to think. Which I'm thankful. Mum hadn't asked me anything and neither had Greg, my brother. I had gone straight to my room only to fall asleep.

So now I'm lying on my bed after waking up for no apparent reason. It's 4:30 in the morning, a perfect time to think.

Who the hell does Payne think he is?!

Doesn't he know that he can't just go up to someone and say 'I want you.'? That's just wrong and creeper-ish. I'm not gonna let myself get hurt again.

But that doesn't mean that if I hadn't gotten hurt I would've said yes otherwise. Even then I would've just run away screaming 'Stranger Danger!'. The only reason I didn't yesterday was because I'm more mature than that.

What bothers me is the feelings I get when Liam is near me, talks to me or touches me. It's like my body is on fire, giving me butterflies in my tummy and making me blush whenever he says my name. He makes me wonder about my feelings, which I don't like to do. But I can't help but think...

What if Liam is different? What if he won't hurt me? What if he makes me feel love again? What if he loves me?

I mean he may just be shy about telling me his feelings, so he's putting up a tough guy act. Right?

Why do I care?! Ugh! This is exactly why I refuse to even think about someone like that. It messes up my feelings, thoughts, and the vow.

Yes the vow.

I shall not fall in love with a guy ever again. I shall not feel love and let my heart get broken even more.

That is my vow. Liam is challenging that vow. He really is a damn pain in the ass.

Love is for everyone but me. It has torn me apart many times, so bad that I know I'm not meant to be loved or feel love. Which means that Liam doesn't love me. He just wants a challenge, of course he's not in it for love.

Beep!

Beep!

Beep!

Beep!

God damn school! If it wasn't for school, I never would've met Liam and I wouldn't be in this mess. I really don't want to go, not because I'm afraid, but because I don't know what Liam is going to do.

Reluctantly I get out of my warm bed and check outside. It's still gloomy and lifeless. But on the bright side...it's not as shitty.

I groan and go through my usual routine. Once I'm done showering, I put on black skinnies, blue shirt, white Supras and a white hoodie. I grab my stuff and leave without getting food. I send a quick text to Louis.

From: Sexy Irish Potato
To: Sass Masta Boobear; Lou, you guys at school yet?

From: Sass Masta Boobear
To: Sexy Irish Potato; yeah, we need to talk Ni. About Payne.

From: Sexy Irish Potato
To: Sass Masta Boobear; whatever. Anything new?

From: Sass Masta Boobear
To: Sexy Irish Potato; apparently there's another new kid...and he's Liam's friend.

From: Sexy Irish Potato
To: Sass Masta Boobear; got it, see you guys soon.

This is getting better and better. Liam has a friend, possibly a girl. Who's gorgeous, tall, long legs and- Why am I thinking this? My breath quickens at the thought of Liam with a girl.

I'm scared. I shouldn't be thinking about that, much less worried...it's just the thought of him with a girl...makes me happy. Yeah that's it. If he has a girl then he can quit the challenge and not bother me. Yup that's the reason.

"Niall!" a familiar voice yells.

Wha- Holy shit! That hurts like a bitch! I wasn't paying attention and ran right into a pole. And it fucking hurts!!

I cover my forehead with my hands and curse under my breath.

"Ni-Niall? Haha-you-ha-ok-oh God! HAHAHA! Did you see his face Haz?!" of course it's Louis.

"HAHA-yeah-hahaha-get-haha-pic?" and there's Harry.

"What the hell guys?! Hurt Irish guy right here!" I yell at them.

They stifle their laughter but I can't help but laugh. They laugh along with me, more AT me than WITH me but who cares? Not me.

When we finally calm down enough to talk coherently I say "Why don't we skip school until lunch? I'm not in the mood to see Mr. Brenton today."

Louis raises an eyebrow at me "Are you sure it's not just because of Liam?"

Why hide it?

"That too. You in?"

"Sure. Let's do this poo!" Harry yells.

"Nandos!" I demand.

"We might as well or you won't stop yelling until we do." Louis shrugs.

Me, being the mature nineteen year old I am, start jumping up and down in happiness.

We walk to Nandos, a twenty minute walk, and enter the restaurant. It's not too full, mostly thirty year olds. We are directed to a table and order drinks. Our waitress, Karen, is old so we don't have to worry about the awkward 'sorry you're not my type and I'm gay' moment. We've had enough of those too last us a lifetime. The three of us get coke and when Karen gets back we order our food. Chicken and chips. As soon as its ready we dig in like five year olds. We talk about nothing in particular until we're done with our food. We split the bill and decide to go to the park.

We walk to the park, no one is there, so we go on the swings. We just play around for about two hours. If I'm right, four periods have passed so we have to get going.

"Louis, Harry we have to go or we'll miss lunch." I whine.

"We ate two hours ago Ni." Harry reminds me.

"Yeah. TWO hours ago. And I'm hungry." I say stubbornly.

"You and your food Niall. All right let's go." Louis chuckles.

"Yeah Buddy!" I yell.

We arrive at school just in time for lunch, I quickly make my way to the cafeteria not watching where I'm going.

I bump into someone sending their things flying across the floor.

"I'm sorry, I wasn't watching where I was going." I apologize to the person as I help them gather their stuff.

"No worries. I wasn't either. I'm-"

"Zayn come on! We're going to be late!" is that...

Liam comes up behind the guy, whom I suppose is Zayn. I take a quick look at Zayn.

Tan skin, brown eyes, black hair in a quiff, muscular looking, black shirt and skinnies, white sneakers and some tattoos. Not my type. Although, the girls would kick my ass if they ever found out that I thought that.

"Hey Niall." Liam greets me with a cocky grin.

"Bye." is my response.

I turn to leave but he grabs my arm.

"Come in Ni, don't be like that. Just give up already." seriously?

"Don't you know the meaning of a challenge Payne? I'm not going to give up or make this easy for you." I reply.

"Why? Everyone wants to go out with me."

"Have you ever thought that I'm not Everyone?" I snap.

His eyes look calculating, as if processing my words.

"What do you mean?" he asks confused. Out of the corner of my eye I see Zayn walking away. NO! Don't go possible new friend! I need your help getting away from this guy!

"I mean, before you try anything with me, get to know me better." I whisper, yank my arm away and go to lunch leaving him.

Actually I make it seem like I'm going to lunch but I head instead to the auditorium. It's empty most of the time, so I can come here when I need space. I go to the stage, pick up my guitar that I keep here and sit on the edge. Usually I sing according to my feelings but I don't feel like doing that today. I need an upbeat song or just any song in general. I strum the cords and start to sing:

***It feels like we been living in fast-forward,
Another moment passing by.
(Up Up Up All Night)
The party's ending but it's now or never,
Nobody's going home tonight.
(Up Up Up All Night)

Katy Perry's on replay,
She's on replay.
DJ got the floor to shake,
The floor to shake.
People going all the way,
Yeah, all the way.
I'm still wide awake.

I wanna stay up all night,
And jump around until we see the sun.
I wanna stay up all night,
And find a girl and tell her she's the one.

Hold on to the feeling, And don't let it go.
Cause we've got the floor now, Get outta control.
I wanna stay up all night,
And do it all with you.

Up all night
Like this, all night, hey.
Up all night
Like this, all night, hey.
Up all night

Don't even care about the table breaking,
We only wanna have a laugh.
(UP Up Up All Night)
I'm only thinking 'bout this girl I'm seeing,
I hope she wanna kiss me back.
(Up up Up All Night)

Katy Perry's on replay,
She's on replay.
DJ got the floor to shake,
The floor to shake.
People going all the way,
Yeah, all the way.
I'm still wide awake.

(Chorus)
I wanna stay up all night,
And jump around until we see the sun.
I wanna stay up all night,
And find a girl and tell her she's the one.

Hold on to the feeling, And don't let it go.
Cause we've got the floor now, Get outta control.
I wanna stay up all night,
And do it all with you.

Up all night
Like this, all night, hey.
Up all night
Like this, all night, hey.
Up all night

Katy Perry's on replay,
She's on replay.
(We're gonna wanna stay up all night)
DJ got the floor to shake,
The floor to shake.
(We're gonna wanna stay up all night)
Up all night, up all night
(We're gonna wanna stay up all night)

I wanna stay up all night,
And jump around until we see the sun.
I wanna stay up all night,
And find a girl and tell her she's the one.

Hold on to the feeling, And don't let it go.
Cause we've got the floor now, Get outta control.
I wanna stay up all night,
And do it all with you.

Up all night
Like this, all night, hey.
Up all night
Like this, all night, hey.
Up all night***

Louis, Harry and I wrote this song a while ago when we were hyper. It's not relevant to my feelings so it's a good song.

I realize I skipped lunch, so I decide to skip the rest of the day except for English. I stay here just singing random songs until English class comes around. I end up singing 'Whistle' by Flo Rida, 'Mad' by Ne-Yo, 'Firework' by Katy Perry, 'Never Say Never' by Justin Bieber and other songs occasionally taking breaks.

It's finally time to go to English. I put my guitar away, grab my stuff and head to English. I walk in not noticing that I'm twenty minutes late.

"Nice of you to join us Niall." Mrs. Willow comments.

"I had to pee."

"Peeing doesn't require twenty minutes."

"I was taking my time." I reply.

She just rolls her eyes at me and continues the lesson.

I go to my seat and sit down all the while having Liam look at me. I try to stay quiet about it but I don't think I'll last. Thank God Mrs. Willow gives us work to do with partners.

"Hey Liam. Wanna be partners?" I ask him.

His eyes widen in shock "Yeah, sure."

He turns around and we do our work, grammar correction and punctuation worksheets. He keeps glancing at me confused but hopeful. When we're done I look at him in the eyes, ignoring the feeling in my stomach.

"Why do you keep looking at me?"

"Is that why you wanted to be partners?" he seems sad. Like he's disappointed that I just wanted to be his partner to ask questions not for the challenge.

"Yes. Now answer me."

"You said that if I wanted to try anything with you, to get to know you better. So that's what I'm doing."

"By staring at me like a creep?" I'm dumbfounded.

"How else?" he snaps.

"By acting normal with me? By getting to know my past? Ask people." I suggest.

"Why don't you tell me." he asks.

There's a lump in my throat.

"Because...it hurts too much." I admit.

Before he can ask anything else the bell rings. I dash out and text Lou and Harry to meet me at the park. Fuck! What have I done? That wasn't part of my plan.

I see a dark figure facing my way but shake it off. My imagination.

Why did I tell Liam that?




Liam's POV

'What hurts too much?'

And why is he so closed off? Others may not see it, but his eyes are like glass.

Broken shards of what once must've been beautiful blue eyes. What caused him to shut himself off from everyone? To shy away from any form of affection?

I'm determined to find out.