You Want Me? Beg For Me [Niam]

~Day 9~

Day 9: 11/21/12

(back to Niall's POV)

Why?

Why Liam why?!

After Liam had told me he loved me, I tried convincing myself that he was talking to someone else. But it was just us two, and he said my name so I can't escape that.

I was taken to the hospital for a check up, was deemed ok and gone home to a hysterical mother and brother who were worried about me. I told them I was fine, and sensing I was distracted, they let me go. I slept the rest of the day still getting over the shock of being in a burning building, and having someone love me.

I woke up this morning to my mum telling me school was cancelled until further notice.

So here I am on the floor, yes the floor don't ask why, hugging my penguin Pillow Pet.

I thought this was only a game to Liam, seeing if he could get me or not. It wasn't supposed to be like this. He wasn't supposed to fall inloved with me. Or maybe, this is part of his plan...

But was if it isn't? What if he actually does love me?

I am not used to being loved, it's been forever since I have. But even then, it wasn't real.

Can I trust him?

I need to talk to someone about this. My mum. Mothers always know best, well that's what people say. It'll be weird talking to my mum again, especially for advice, but I'm sure she won't mind.

I slowly get up off the floor, leave my Pillow Pet on my bed and go downstairs. I find my mum and Greg sitting in the living room watching TV. I go over to them and clears throat. They snap their gazes to me in surprise.

"Mum? Can I talk to you?" I say self-conscious.

Her face is in shock, along with Greg's, but she composers herself.

"Yeah sure honey. What do you need to talk about?" she queries.

"Can I stay?" Greg asks.

I nod at him and sit on the couch so I'm facing both of them.

"Well you see, you remember Liam right? The boy who came over?"

"Ah yes, I remember him." mum replies.

"H-he told me he loves me...and I don't know what to do." I confess.

There's silence for a minute. It's awkward in the room, but more of a family awkwardness.

"Well...how do you feel about him?" she asks.

I never thought about that "I don't know."

"Does he make you feel happy? Annoyed? Tingly?"

"Happy I don't know, sometimes. Annoyed yes, he cares too much about me. I'm not used to it. Tingly...kind of." I mumble the last part.

"To me, it seems you kind of like him, but only you know the truth." Greg adds.

"I'll think about it. What I want to know is...should I give him a chance?"

"It's a risk you'll be taking. He can either hurt you. Or he can make you whole again." mum advices.

"Have you told him your past?" Greg asks eyebrow raised.

I nod "Yeah I did. That day when I went over to his house."

"He knows your past, so I'm sure he won't try to hurt you. But only you can decide wether to give him a chance or not. " mum tells me looking sat me sympathetically.

"Just remember that if he hurts you, we'll be there for you." Greg smiles at me.

I should be more open with them, but not yet. I get up and hug them shocking them even more.

"Thank you." with that I leave to my room again.

I enter my room, locking it behind me, and jump on the bed face up.

I lazily grab my phone and call Louis. It rings three times before he answers.

Louis: hey Niall. You ok?

Me: yeah I'm fine. Who you with?

Louis: Hazza and Zayn at my house.

Me: ok. Umm can you guys help me on something?

Louis: sure. Let me put it on speaker.

There's some noise in the background and then I hear Zayn and Harry.

Harry: hi Niall!

Zayn: sup Niall. You ok?

Me: I'm fine. Thanks for asking Harry.

I hear laughing.

Louis: so what do you need our help with?

Me: Liam.

All three of them: did he hurt you?!

Me: no! It's just that...he told me he loves me.

There's silence on the other side.

Zayn: he what?

Me: he told me loves me. And I don't know what to do. Should I give him a chance?

Harry: I don't know mate. I say you don't. He could hurt you. You could get hurt even worse.

Louis: I say you should. For all you know, he could help you. He's been really nice for a few days. He saved you for Gods sake! Just be careful.

Zayn: .....I don't know. He's my best friend, but I don't know what to say in this situation. He's a sweet guy and I can tell he cares about you. But he could also hurt you. So I say you should follow your heart.

Me: alright. Thanks guys.

I hang up and look up at my ceiling.

Great advice Zayn. Follow my heart. If I had a heart.

I admit he's sweet and caring. His presence seems to calm me when I'm nervous. I get tingly feelings when he's around, when he touches me, when he says my name. I think I like him. But I'm not sure.

I start to drift off to sleep but have one last thought.

It wouldn't hurt to give Liam a chance would it?