You Want Me? Beg For Me [Niam]

~Day 11~

Day 11: 11/23/12

(back to Niall's POV)

"Niall? What happened yesterday?" mum asks as I go lay on the couch.

"We had dinner, Liam kept looking at me. And we just had a lot of fun." I reply grinning.

She looks at me and smiles "Have you decided to give Liam a chance honey?"

I look at her and smile "Yes mum. I think I will give Liam a chance."

She squeals with happiness "Oh my god! I was talking to Karen and we both know you two will look so cute as a couple."

I blush furiously "Mumm!"

"I'm sorry but it's true. And besides thanks to Liam...you're more open with me and Greg. And I thank him for that." she tells tears forming in her eyes and leaves to go to a friend's house.

All alone with my thoughts. Good.

Yesterday was so...perfect. I guess that's the only way to describe it.

When he offered for me to lay down and put my head on his lap, I was going to decline but I didn't. And I'm glad for that.

I felt safe and happy just being there with him. And when he ran his hand through my hair, I felt calm and somewhat complete. I felt as if his hands belonged there. Not in my hair, but just touching me.

I realize now that that day when Louis ran his hand through my hair and I felt nostalgic for someone else touch...I actually felt nostalgic for Liam's touch, I just never realized it. Until now.

Then when Liam tugged at my hair on accident, I felt a bit of you know pleasure, and I moaned. I couldn't help it though, that coupled with Liam's touch just made me moan. When he told me not to worry that it was cute, I had obviously blushed.

When he cupped my cheek with his hand caressing it, I wanted to stay like that forever. I was about to lean into his touch but he pulled back blushing. Which was cute. Really cute. His cheeks filled with a tint of pink gave him an adorable look. Not that he isn't already.

We then started to sing to Down by Jay Sean ft lil Wayne. His voice was stunning. There is no one on the planet who can compare to his voice. No one.

While we sang, I just let go of myself for a bit. No worrying about anything at all. I let go of my self control. I had a great time with Liam. I really did.

And I admit it. I do like him. But I feel this ache on my chest, right where my heart should be. Ever since HE broke me, my heart stopped working. It was no longer used for love, only as an organ used for keeping me alive. But not for love.

But this ache is right where my heart should be. It fills my body with a slight feeling of something. I can't figure out what it is. I know I felt it before...when Liam told me he loved me. This ache was there just duller, but still there. I ignored it thinking it was from shock of almost having been burned alive. I want to know what it is.

I close my eyes and suddenly an image of Liam's smiling face comes to mind.

Making the ache grow bigger.

But why with Liam? I like him and all but why would there be an ache if I just fancy him?

Unless....

Is this love?

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Just warning you all, shit is about to get real next chapter. But is it good shit or bad shit??? Not sure....