ƈʀօȶƈɦɛȶʏ, ռɛա, ʟօʋǟɮʟɛ • ɮɨʟʟɨɛ ɛɨʟɨֆɦ

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"So you basically dumped your friends.", Maya's expression is one of pure confusion.

Since I decided to talk about everything that's going on in my life, I've been trying to explain why I hadn't left my friends earlier.
And the truth is, well, I don't have any idea.

"Well, I didn't really have a choice. I mean, first there was Bradley, that homophobic dickhead. Then, there's Sarah, who's supposedly been raped by a girl or something. Lily and Tanner really tried to help the situation, but they're homophobes too Maya. They can't do much."

My sister narrows her eyes in evident, complete annoyance.
"Why is everyone you hang out with such an asshole sis?"

"Well, not everyone.", my tone is suggestive, but she immediately gets what I am trying to indicate.

"Oh, you're so doomed.", she chuckles excitedly.

"What do you mean?"

She straightens the last piece of hair remaining and turns off that thing I've never touched in my whole life.

"You have romantic feelings for her.", she simply states and picks up her lipgloss.

What the-

"What the fuck Maya? You're talking just like them.", my immediate harsh tone makes her smile even wider.

"Come on, just admit it already. You like her. It's not a crime you know."

"I know that but I don't like her that way!", my tone is louder but I can't help it. For some strange reason, I feel the need to defend myself.

Defend? Being called gay isn't that bad when you know you're not. Right?
The only person that needs to know the truth is yourself. Right?

"Look, I've seen people in denial before, you'll get over it. Just don't do any stupid shit that'll end up hurting her in the process.", she calmly replies, applying the lip gloss all over her lips.

"I am not in denial Maya. I am not a lesbian just because the only friend I have at the moment is a gay person."

"So it's just a coincidence that you decided to dump your shitty friends now, after all these years of spending time with them every day, knowing they were homophobes.", she doesn't even look at me again, facing the mirror instead.

"I...I felt different because I have a gay friend now. Just that. It's different."

"Let me tell you what's different. Your attitude. I like this new Jade sis. Don't go back to what you were before."

Excuse me?

"What I was before? Wow, my own sister is really saying those words in front of my face right now.", I commend in disbelief. "Didn't expect that."

She rolls her eyes and lets the lip gloss down to pick up the mascara.

"Stop being so dramatic. I am just telling you what I see. I see a changed person. In a good way. Don't let other people's opinions get to you.", she keeps putting makeup on, while I sit on the bed beside her, feeling really stupid.

There's no way I have romantic feelings for Billie Eilish. She is just my friend. All friends feel...sympathy and tenderness towards their friends. Right?

"Then stop being delusional. Gosh, I hate it when you think you know everything...", my pout is more of a silly face.

"But I do."

I throw a small pillow at her, but she catches it right in time before it ruins her hair. "That was mean sis."

"Well, you're being mean to me this whole time so it doesn't matter. I was just trying to involve you in my personal life and problems but the only thing you had to say was that I am a lesbian."

"Hey hey, I didn't say you're a lesbian. I just said you have a crush on the weirdo.", she winks at me and I groan loudly.

"She's not a weirdo, stop calling her that!"

Her intense, sarcastic smile is the clue that I just defended Billis Eilish in front of my sister. While she was just trying to mess with me.
How great.

"See? That's what I meant.", she giggles and gets up from her chair to find her bag.

"You're not leaving like that after everything I just confessed to you.", I warn.

"What did you confess? Your undying love for Billie Eilish?"

I huff in irritation. "Can you just stop?"

"No. You asked for my opinion."

"Never again."

She laughs out loud and picks up her bag, while looking for her stilettos under the bed.

"You know you don't mean that. I give the best advice. On every situation."

"You just made me even more confused.", I snort sarcastically.

Her eyes widen in surprise. What did I say wrong this time?

"So you're actually thinking of the possibility of having feelings for her, aren't you?", she smiles widely and gives me a thumbs up.

"What? No, I didn't mean it like that!", my panicked voice makes her laugh.

"Come on stop denying it. You feel something. Maybe a tiny something, but there's certainly something."

I grab the pillow I threw at her before and try my best this time, but the door closes behind her as she exits the room, laughing loudly.

I sigh in defeat, actually considering the possibility of thinking about Rainbow for a little too long for a simple platonic friendship.