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Nineteen : you ever been in love?

11th April, 2013

I again dreamt of being in azure sky like a flawless bird, but this time I didn't keep on flying. I fell because my wings were broken.
With broken wings, how to fly?
She was the one who aided me in flying free. Without her I was Mr. Nobody. She was like a crutch but without her, I couldn't walk.
And when I couldn't walk, how could I move on?
So I was stuck in the ghost of my past.

Me, William and his new girlfriend Sarah were sitting in the cafeteria while eating tacos. Sarah was pretty sweet except that she wouldn't shut up about telling me how much she missed Grace. Seriously? I had never seen her with Grace. How could she miss the one she didn't know?
Over the past few months, everyone told me how much they missed her or loved her, which was a straight lie. No one knew her. No one was there when she was broken. It was just like a stranger talking about you. It was total bullshit. No one deserved her including me.
But that's how the world works:
Everyone will miss you or love you, only when you're gone. We all are so sweet, right?
Wrong.

"So you got any date for tomorrow?" Sarah asked me while sitting on William's lap, waking me from my deep thoughts. She playfully stroked William's hair. Well, I was happy for him. Everyone deserves true love.

Oh right, the prom. It was tomorrow night. I had no one to go with so I decided to stay home.
"Um...don't wanna go." I deadpanned.
William giggled and said,
"C'mon dude, I'll get you a prom. You are handsome enough like me."
I smirked and rolled my eyes at him.
Within a moment, Sarah spoke,
"You already have a date, Mr. Daniel. Emma Hudson will join you."
"Emma Hudson?" I asked in disbelief. She was one of the most hottest girl in our school and everyone adored her beauty.
How could I, such a dumbhead could go with her?
Sarah, whose eyes were sparkling with excitement, explained,
"Yeah, she told me that day that she has a big crush on you and I told her to go on prom with you and she was fucking glad."

No, that was a real bad idea. I'd never had any experiences with hot famous girl with cute skirts.
Of course, Grace Anderson, was much better than her. She was probably much better than anybody, but in a different way.
In a way that could melt your heart and make life worth-living.

"No.....I don't------." I was about to say something but Emma appeared from behind, saying,
"I don't what?"
"Um, nothing." I replied, grabbed my bag and was ready to leave.

Although she was hot, still she couldn't be compared with my Grace.

As I was about to leave the room, Emma stopped in front of me and said,
"Wanna go on a prom tomorrow?"

My heart skipped a beat and I turned back. William and Sarah's eyes were like, do it, and my heart kept telling me no, but again I was dumb.
Somewhere inside, the deep parts of me told me to live my life.
I smiled a little after saying YES.

The next night, I spent an entire hour thinking what to wear. In the end, I wore a white linen shirt and grey pants. I applied the smallest dab of perfume. I was ready.
I went downstairs where mum was making spaghetti with meatballs.
Hmm, my favorite.
She was swaying all around the kitchen while singing,
"Live like you were dying" by Tim McGraw, her favourite artist.