Behind Closed Eyes (A Cimorelli Fanfic) [Book 1] UNDER CONSTRUCTION

Chapter 33

Chapter 33

Dani's POV

"Hello! I know I haven't downloaded anything on this YouTube account in a while, well, much less go on the computer for awhile.... Anyways, I need to talk to you all fans. So, I'm going to talk to you while I go on a walk to the beach. A lot of you guys have been wondering what the scars on my arms are from. Okay, this is going to be a very long rant right now.

".Our parents got into a car accident a few months ago. They haven't been living with us since. Mom is finally better and dad just woke up today. They both were in comas. Emily came to stay with us about a month before the accident. If she wasn't here, none of us would be doing well right now. Since my parents weren't here, we had no one to bring in money or teach us school. Amy, Alex, Lauren, Emily, Christian, Nick, Joey, and I all had to go to a real school.

"We all went to catholic school because from what Emily told us, we wouldn't have survived. Well, I couldn't even survive catholic middle school. I was getting bullied. Everyone was telling me how ugly I am, how weird it is for me to be in eighth grade, how fat I am, how awkwardly tall I am, how weird I am in the videos, how I don't belong anywhere, and.... There was only one person who was nice and actually talked to me without any hatred towards me, I kind of miss him. The teachers weren't any nicer, they absolutely didn't care about me. Well the art teacher was alright to me the first day but didn't care about me anytime after. I couldn't stand it anymore.

"After a few weeks after starting school, I just quit. I quit doing school work, talking to anyone, eating, and everyone in my family quit singing. I didn't tell anyone but there was one person who could tell. She could tell my sisters and I all had problems and what they were. I don't know how Emily could but she was able to. One night, we had a big meeting just for the girls in the house regarding the band. We all quit, well not all of us. Emily tried her very best to convince us there was more hope in our lives. Too bad I never really noticed how amazing she is until now.... Anyways, I was the one who really quit. I walked out on them and went for a walk.

"It was kind of late but I wanted to go away. I went to the beach and sat down on the sand. Broken glass was everywhere, sharp glass. That day, I was quite depressed. I took a piece of the glass and began to cut my skin open. I put them into special designs because I wanted it to feel like I was getting a tattoo and have scars that would look alright. Blood was all over my arms and pain shot threw me like a million bullets were in my body. I ran, to ease the pain and to get home. Well, home wasn't on my mind. I dashed back up the hill, not to the house though. A cliff was nearby, I didn't see any reason for me to be here anymore so I just jumped off.

"I wouldn't be alive if Katherine wasn't on a walk and found me unconscious in bushes of thorn. Luckily, I was saved and now I feel great. I wouldn't have the faith to keep going if it weren't for Emily's kind words and the video she made for us. Click the link in the description to see it.

"Now everything is great, I'm not sure Lauren is though. Ever since she got back from a school trip to Washington, D.C. , she's been pretty quiet.... She's been talking to Emily a lot and she feels better after. Emily is truly amazing. Somehow, she's the closest to all of us. We all can talk to her easily and trust her. Maybe because we haven't known her our whole life." I said through tears streaming down my face. I could taste salt in my mouth and my throat desperately needed water.

"Now I'm on a walk to find Emily. When we were filming the video, she stormed out. It was kind of strange, she looked kind of sad too. Anyways, let's go find her! Ugh, I'm so tired and I really need food. Oh, uh... Am I disturbing anything?" I said. I looked down and aimed the camera at Emily. She was making out with her boyfriend, Andy. How did he suddenly get here?

"Oh, it's fine. I'm sorry." Emily said. Andy got off of her and pulled Emily up. They both smiled and held each other's hands as they talked to both me and the camera.

"It's actually my fault, I came here suddenly. Oh yeah, I'm Andy!" Andy said to me then to the camera.

"No, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have come to disturb you two. Aww, you guys are so cute! Almost as cute as Nick and Christina, that says something. Anyways, let's go back home. Oh yeah, why are you here Andy?" I said.

"Well, I couldn't stand to not see Emily for another second. It's hard living on the other side of the country with no one else. Plus, her brother is auditioning on the X factor in a few days, I don't want to miss that. Dylan is such a good musician." He said with a smile.

"Aww, that's so nice of you! How do you not have anyone to live with?!" I asked Andy.

"Um... Uh, my parents and brother died in a car accident. I'm left alone, no one bothered to take me in." He said, trying his best not to break down into tears. I could see a tear slip away from eyes lost in thought.

"I'm so sorry! I didn't know-" I said, feeling terrible.

"It's fine." He said with an assuring smile.

"Let's go back home. Oh yeah, I have the camera on! Bye guys!" I said while shutting the camera off.

I got home, went to a computer and immediately uploaded the video without looking at it again on my YouTube channel. I was so tired that I kind of forgot about what happened.