Opposites

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Chapter ten. Three more chapters until...well you'll see haha

tw: alcohlic mention

tw: suicide mention (light)

I climbed into the passenger seat of Justin’s car about twenty minutes later. Justin pulled out of the entrance immediately and began to drive. My eyes were filling up with tears. 

“Where to?” He turned to me.

“Anywhere but here.” 

“Cali, is there anything you wanna talk about? What happened with Mason?” Justin was frantically looking at the road and then at me. 

I broke down the next second. My heart was pounding and I was struggling to breathe through the intensity of this emotional weight sinking into my chest. I broke out into repulsive sobs and covered my face in my hands as I struggled to keep all of my emotions in. I wanted so desperately to just let them fly free but I knew I couldn’t do that. Not ever. My sadness completely engulfed me to the point where it felt like I was choking. I trusted him. I let Mason in. 

“He doesn’t love me, Justin. I don’t think he ever did. He threatened me and chased me down.” I said between violent sobs. 

Justin reached out and began to pat me lightly on the back.

“I’m going to pull over at this field up here. Is that all right?” 

I nodded my head lightly. Justin turned on to a grass field. No crops were growing there anymore but the grass reached the tops of the tires. Justin put the car in park and turned up the air conditioning. 

“He wasn’t worth it. You’ll find someone who deserves you.” Justin unbuckled himself and turned himself to me. 

“Correction, Mason was the only person that ever put up with me and will probably be the last to ever do so.”

“No, what I meant was that you’ll find someone who really loves you.”

I was silent for a few minutes after that. My fingers twisted through my wavy hair as I thought through what to say.

“You don’t know anything about love. I love Mason. I need him.” 

“I do. I’m in love with Tamara. You don’t really love Mason, Cali. You’re just afraid of being alone and you can’t admit that to yourself.”

“You don’t love her! She’s probably hooking up with one of your friends behind your back! How dare you talk to me like that? I’ve only known you a little over a month. You don’t know me at all.” I tried to unlock the car door but the alarm went off so I quickly closed it as Justin frantically tried to turn it off.

“Why do you run away from your problems? Why can’t you let me help you?” Justin pleaded with me.

“Help me? Ha! Is that all I am to you? I’m just some piece of charity work to you aren’t I? Take me home. I don’t want anything to do with you.” 

“Tamara loves me and I love her! You’re not just charity work, you’re my friend! I haven’t had a real friend in years!”

“Who’s lying to themselves now?!” I shouted, I realized I was only inches away from Justin’s face. He had beautiful eyes. 

“You don’t know what you’re talking about.”

“And you do? Your relationship isn’t going to last. She’s all about partying and getting herself noticed. You’re her accessory and deep down you know that. I’ve known girls like her all my life. She isn’t for you. Maybe you guys were happy in the past, but you’re not anymore. I think you’re the one here who is so terrified of being alone.”