Hers To Bear - An SVU fic

2.Helplessness

CHAD'S BEDROOM, CONTINUED...

*chapter contains rape*

"Calm. The fuck. Down!" he ordered. There was ice in his voice as he shook me to punctuate his words. He looked down at me and a sinister smile crept upon his lips before he let go of my neck, leaving me gasping for air. "You're a little wildcat, huh?" and in one quick motion, he grabbed my panties and tore them off. "Let's see how wild you can be!"

"No, please!" I was so out of it that my pleading couldn't resonate how truly frightened I was, but I was unable to scream, I could barely raise my voice above a whisper and before my next thought could register, there was searing pain between my legs as he began pushing himself inside me while biting into my neck. Tears quickly gathered and began flowing freely and I turned my head to look away. My vision had begun to blur but I could make out the cordless phone on the night table and I began desperately reaching for it, thinking to myself God please, if I could just call Liv! I stretched my arm as far as I could and managed to grab it.

"Christ! You are one tight little slut!" he said and looked up, noticing the phone in my hand then knocking it away before he pinned my arms down. "Now what do you need that for?" he mocked while smiling down at me.

"Please, don't" I was stopped, unable to speak, hardly able to catch my breath as he tore into me dry with angry thrusts. Somehow, a scream finally managed to escape my throat but Chad quickly covered my mouth with his free hand. The pain was unbelievable and tears flowed down the sides of my face as I struggled against him, trying desperately to get him out of me but it was no use; my hands were pinned, but even if they hadn't been, I was too weak from whatever they'd drugged me with and the weight of his body was too heavy against mine. After a moment I heard the door open and in walked Kip and Dean with a few other guys I didn't recognize.

"My bad, man!" I heard one of them say. Without stopping his assault on me, Chad turned to his friends:

"Lock that door! Let's have some fun!"

The group looked on for a second before Kip locked the bedroom door and he and the rest of them came towards me. My heart felt as if it would beat its way right out of my chest and I bucked beneath Chad as I began to feel hands all over my body. They showed no mercy in their assault; hurting me so bad that I passed out a couple times during, only to come to and find myself still being violated. It must have gone on for hours. The last thing I remember was being sandwiched between two of them before I passed out again!" When I woke up it was 3:04 in the morning according to the bedside clock and I was there in that room, in that bed and completely naked. My mind was so groggy, I felt hung-over; my head hurt, my mouth was dry and my tongue felt swollen but even worse was the pain radiating from between my legs, terrible, terrible pain! My body hurt everywhere and I winced as I slowly dragged myself out of bed. That's when I saw him; Chad had been lying there right beside me, passed out and naked. The very second I laid eyes on him it all came back to me and I stumbled backwards and hit the floor, landing hard on my behind. I cried out, both from the shock of the pain and the realization of what had happened to me in this room.

"Oh, God!" I cried through choking sobs. I noticed my crumpled dress and my purse on the floor near the bed and I quickly grabbed them, slipped my dress on over my head and ran for the door. I didn't care about the excruciating pain I was in, I didn't bother to find my shoes or undergarments, I just ran, tripping over someone who was passed out in the hall. Someone spoke to me but I paid no attention. Once downstairs, I ran out the front door and continued running until I was on the street, blocks away from that building. Only then did I stop to survey my surroundings. I was now struggling to catch my breath and my lungs were burning. I suddenly felt the dizziness come back and leaned against the stop light for support just as sharp pains began shooting through my abdomen and I cried out, doubling over as I did. Three young women walked by, arm-in-arm and stopped when they saw me there.