Hers To Bear - An SVU fic

28.Topsy Turvy

The sun came up over the city ready to begin another beautiful spring day. But for a certain group of law-enforcement officers, today would bring nothing but apprehension until they were certain the direction in which the wheels of justice would be turning.

At Olivia's place, she was fast asleep on the couch exactly as she'd dozed off just after four AM; with Noelle sleeping peacefully on her chest. She opened her eyes and gave a small stretch, not wanting to wake the baby and was careful as she sat up and picked up her phone to look at the time.

"Just after seven..." she kissed the top of Noelle's head before reaching over to place her carefully in the bassinette that sat beside the sofa. Once she put the baby down she closed her eyes and took a couple of deep breaths, trying to shake off the dizziness and nausea she was already feeling

"Please don't throw up" she said out loud then stood and made her way to her bathroom.

Inside the bathroom she stood in front of the mirror and took look at herself. She pulled up her t-shirt and smoothed her hand down her stomach letting it rest just below her navel and smiled before sighing.

"Why are you even entertaining this? No, the better question is, how could you be so careless?" she asked her reflection before opening the top drawer of the bathroom counter and picking up the pregnancy test that she bought on her way home from Barba's office yesterday. Taking another deep breath and releasing it, she tore open the box and gave the directions a quick once over then used her teeth to rip the foil pouch that held the test stick and tossed it and the box into the trash. Lifting the lid to the toilet then hooking her thumbs under the waistband of her leggings to push then down.

A minute later she stood drying her hands, having just washed them and glancing nervously at the test strip that lay on the counter. She'd dropped the hand towel and was massaging lotion into her hands when something appeared in the display window of the strip. She ran her hand through her hair as she nervously picked it up and read it, to her shock.

Pregnant

She gasped, dropping the stick in the sink as one hand flew to her stomach and the other to her mouth to catch the sob that escaped.

"Oh my god... oh my god!" she cried, unable to even fully process what had just happened. How was it even possible? The doctor had been so sure after...

"I'm pregnant!"

Her shock was interrupted when Noelle began to cry from the living room and she quickly snapped out of her astonishment and left to tend to her daughter.

***

Twenty minutes later during which she tried desperately to wrap her head around the situation, Noelle was fed and Olivia sat in a daze burping her when the doorbell rang. Wondering who would be dropping by so early, she got up and went to the door, suddenly even more emotional at seeing Brian through the peek hole.

"Brian, what are you doing here?"

"Good morning to you too" he said as he walked in and stopped to kiss her, then Noelle on their cheeks "I brought croissants from that snooty little French bakery you love so much"

"Um...later" she cringed, her stomach churning as she took the box from him and headed towards the kitchen where she deposited it on the counter. She could smell the pastry through the box and the thought of eating it made her mouth water - and not in a good way.

"You don't look so good" Brian noticed as he reached for Noelle "Hey, beauty queen" he smiled before putting her on his shoulder and resumed patting her back to burp her while taking a seat on the couch beside Olivia