Seething Journey

Chapter 13

Having the chance to let things out and be free from all doubt and hurt I have allowed building inside is amazing. With me getting back into writing and knowing there is still that part which thinks I should give up, it's a battle. It's a battle that continued to haunt me. I know it haunts me, but I also know what I can do with this gift. This gift is something I enjoy most. It keeps me going with being on the app Wattpad. With going to work and getting used to how things are done, I know it takes time. I know it's only been a couple of days but I messed up twice. I'm still learning the ropes there. I know once I get it I will be just like everyone else. I know I will still have writing as my escape. I know I will be able to spend my free time just coming up with characters and life stories and different ways of doing things.

I know that's the great thing about getting lost in books. As a writer and being able to read and read it helps with your vocabulary and it gives you tons of ideas. I love being able to be in the book world for just a little while. While I'm reading I get to picture how the writer was thinking or allowing the characters to take over. When you're on the journey of being able to sit down and just let it come out you feel wonderful. I know I do because it makes me feel like I am creating a masterpiece. I know even though I have been writing since I was ten there is still a ton I have yet to experience about the writing world. I know there are tons of subjects I can write about. I know there is a ton I haven't been a fan of writing either. I know I can build on it and I can get my skills better.

I know life helps us with getting the experience and the drive. The drive is what keeps us going. I have heard many people tell me that's what I got. It makes me keep going with my writing and keep working. With writing about my life and romance I have become a hopeless romantic person. I know there are plenty of people like that on the planet. I know there are people from all walks of life too. I just know I have learned from many people and I am able to use what I got in a good light. I want to keep doing what I can to become an even better writer and human being. I know this world can beat you and spit you out. I know that this life has taught me many lessons. I know with me it seems like when I meet the right people sometimes I meet them at the wrong time.

Other times it's the right time and I just got to keep it going. I know I got to keep my head up and use what they tell me and teach me to the best of my capabilities. I know I won't give up on my gift. Especially finding out that most of my family were writers too. I know that I can't give up because it won't just be for my family, but it's because it's always been the one thing which I know is something I enjoy. I like doing many things but writing is something that never leaves me. I take what I learn from the authors on twitter and the one's on Instagram and the ones I read from and use it to help me. I use it as a guide to give me a push. I like the push I get, and most people are shocked. I know this and I got to run with it. I know me running with it is just me letting it out.

I used to fight with myself all the time as a teenager. I used to question why I always had to be in trouble for something. I used to write my papers for school and be happy with myself. I liked knowing my teachers we're proud to call me their student. I liked knowing even if my parents and siblings thought what I was doing was crazy there was someone who thought otherwise. I know I had to deal with other writers who thought their work needed to shine more. Even with that, I kept writing. I wasn't going to let their egos get to me. I knew I loved my writing and my friends were proud of me. I had friends who helped me to come up with titles for some of my stories. They used to sit there and see me always walking around with a notebook. They knew I was always going to come up with something new.

They knew I was going to write about something even if it wasn't too interesting to them. They believed in me though. I feel that way about my readers on Wattpad. If I have their belief in me I know I can do it. I know they will read it and give me their feedback. I know the criticism will help me to understand what I need to change. It will help me to know where I messed up and how to make it better. Everything is about improvement. It's about learning how to make yourself be a better human being and have the knowledge we all should possess. It's amazing when I watch movies and I hear about the aliens say about how humans don't use their brains. How do you know? We create you and we can destroy you. I'm just yapping but I know I enjoy everything about being a writer.