Hetalia One shots (TAKING REQUESTS)

Germany x Depressed!Suicidal!Reader

Request from @kissofdemon13 enjoy!

Staring at the blade in hand I took it between my for finger and thumb, cutting a thin line on my wrist. Blood came out and I felt the rush of relief run through me, I made another line and another, I continued cutting, not stopping till I felt dizzy. Putting the blade back in the medicine cabinet, I turned on the sink and washed my arm with cold water, I turned off the faucet and wrapped my arm up with gauze. I had to make sure that the lines wouldn't be visible tomorrow,  if they are Ludwig will not be happy. I sighed and went out of the bathroom to my room, I layed down on my bed spreading my arms out wide.

' Life sucks.' I thought to myself as I turned over on my stomach and stared out the window, watching as the stars twinkled in the night sky. Sitting up I took out my I-pod from my drawer and hit a random song. I smirked slightly and layed back down, this song describes how I feel everyday.

Well if you wanted honesty that's all you had to say
I never want to let you down
Or have you go it's better off this way
For all the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took
Remember when you broke your foot from jumping out the second floor

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out

What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems
(I'm not okay)
I told you time and time again you sing the words but still don't know what it means
To be a joke and look, another line without a hook
I held you close as we both shook
For the last time take a good hard look

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out

Forget about the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took
You said you read me like a book but the pages are all torn and faded

I'm okay
I'm okay
I'm okay now(I'm okay now)
But you really need to listen to me because I'm telling you the truth I mean it I'm okay (trust me)

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
Well I'm not okay, I'm not o-fucking-kay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay

'This explains me so much.' I thought again, my ex boyfriend took pictures of me and my scarred body and posted it all over the Internet. I tried commenting suicide by jumping out of a window but I only broke a foot. Most of my friends abonanded me and the only ones that are left are Ludwig, Arthur, Francis, Ivan and Matthew.  Everyone else left me in shattered pieces, but Ludwig picked them up and tried gluing me back together but a fee are still missing. I went to bed that night. I can't  wait for school.

I woke up at the sound of my alarm and got up, shutting it off I stretched and walked to the bathroom.  I passed my brother, Jason, in the hallway, he grumbled a good morning and went downstairs.  I went into the bathroom, shedding off my clothes I turned on the water, hot just the way I like it. I stepped in and shampooed my hair, then conditioned it. I finished and got out, drying off. I walked back into my room, since it was fall I could wear long sleeved shirts and pants and no one would know, only that they already did. I put on a black long sleeved shirt and black pants with boots. Bracelets covering my arms as well. I dried my hair and brushed it out and went downstairs to have breakfast. I was greeted by bacon and eggs.

" Good morning Ollie." I said to my older brother as I sat down.

" Good morning deary!" Ollie said cheerfully, completely oblivious to my depression. I try to keep my life out of my family, knowing them they would kill anyone who messed with me. I felt a hand ruffle my hair roughly, I ignored it and ate some bacon.