Bound by Crown (Boundless #1)

Chapter 28

Everything went in a blur after he left me in the drawing room. I forgot who found me there alone and how I got back home safely. I felt hollow and empty like my heart was stabbed deeply. I can't explain how hurt I am still feeling right now.

Tulala pa rin ako sa aking kuwarto kahit sikat na ang haring araw. Kung saan ko nakuha ang lakas para makahilamos at makapagbihis kagabi ay hindi ko na alam. Wala na akong ibang matandaan kung hindi ang pag-iwan sa akin ni Vladimir na siyang highlight ng engagement party namin.

I remember he told me that he already has a girlfriend, and I'm stupid to not even consider that for real. He's handsome and all, maybe a total package. Hindi naman talaga malayo na may girlfriend siya, pero bakit ang sakit malaman ang katotohanan na iyon? Sa kanya pa mismo nanggaling.

He's taken, I'm taken. That should put a hard line between us and get myself together in order to focus on what's important ahead of me.

I should be happy about what happened because I have an ultimate reason to back off and save my feelings from getting hurt, but I pity myself from feeling so broken over the fact that I can't really have him for real.

All I had is a fake relationship with him that confused me to what is my reality. I shouldn't have let my guard down with him. I shouldn't have fallen for the trap. I shouldn't have come back here yet, I hoped that somehow, it's all real.

Even how many times I torture myself to what I should have done and what not, I couldn't change anything anymore. I'm already here and as the saying goes, life must go on and I should too.

I'm afraid to look at my phone and see something from Vladimir, but the other part of me won so I fished it out in my clutch bag that I had last night, and was actually felt sadder to find nothing coming from him.

He wasn't like this before ever since we got okay with each other and since he cleaned my phone. He always contact me through texts and calls just to say anything but now, I should know better.

This is nothing like what it used to before. I'm sure that he is going to ignore and will try to forget everything with me from now on so I don't have anyone else to confide with here anymore.

Dad is an exemption to this matter kahit ayos na kaming dalawa dahil kahit na sumusunod na ako sa kanyang kagustuhan dahil gusto ko siya na mapasaya at maging buo ulit kami kahit kami lang na dalawa ay gusto ko pa rin kahit papaano na sundin ang ninanais ng aking puso.

I love Dad, but I also love myself and I value my worth. Lalo pa sa nangyari kagabi, I need to take care of myself and piece myself back together.

From what happened and said last night, I should not think otherwise. My imagination is over and should live with the truth.

Tamad ako na lumabas ng aking kuwarto at bumaba ng hagdan papunta sa dining area. Malinis ang lamesa pero may ingay na akong naririnig sa kusina. Marahil ay naghahanda pa ang mga kasambahay para sa agahan.

It's still early but I can't stay inside my room any longer because I can't stop replaying the last scene in the drawing room in my head. I need to do something to take my mind off of it or I'll go insane.

Tinapat ko ang aking tainga sa pintuan ng opisina ni Dad at pinakiramdaman ang paligid. Walang kahit anong ingay sa loob kaya marahan ko na binuksan ang pintuan saka sumilip para hindi maistorbo si Dad kung sakali man na natutulog pa siya.

Pagbukas ko ng bahagya sa pintuan ay may isang pares na mata ang nakatingin sa akin nang mapatingin ako sa may lamesa. Dad is already awake and caught me checking on him.

"Can I?" I asked softly.

"Come in, Sophia. What can I do for you?" tanong niya saka ipinasok ang kanyang binabasa na papel sa isang brown envelope sa gilid ng kanyang lamesa at humarap sa akin ng may buong atensiyon.