Us Happened

Learn it from them

Mika

"Every relationship comes trials and hardships. Wala naman kasing perfect na relasyon eh." I said while I try to comfort my teammate, Kianna. It's pretty obvious with her puffy and swollen eyes that she's not okay right now. Napaguusapan na rin namin yan ng team eh. Something, someone's bothering her.

"If it hurts, it's real." We're sitting on one of the benches inside the gym. Dito kasi tahimik, and I must say, we find solitude here.

"I know naman Ye, pero nakakapagod na eh. Buti pa kayo ni Kiefer, kahit away bati kayo parang ang saya saya niyo." Kianna fuss. I gently bumped my body to her to make her feel she's not alone with this.

"We have our flaws and besides those bumps along the road makes it even more stronger, trust me. Been there, done that." I said stretching my hands and legs as I try to walk back me and Kiefer's petty fights. Kianna is still silent, suppressing her sadness.

"Darating talaga sa point ng relasyon yung gusto mo ng umalis. Katulad mo ngayon, kung iisipin mo mas magandang bumitaw habang maaga pa kasi sabi nila mababaw pa ang foundation but if you really think it through, relationship that ends fast kills the most." Tinignan ko ulit siya. She's crying now.

"We have those moments K, don't be too hard on yourself." Ginulo ko ang buhok niya.

"Ye, ganito pala yung pakiramdam no? Nakakabaliw nga." Couldn't agree more.

"Word. But at the end of the day if the person is worth staying for, nothing ever matters."

"Ikaw ba Ye, dumating ka din ba sa point na ayaw mo na?"

"Parang di mo naman alam." I rolled my eyes at her.

"Happened way too many times." My phone vibrated, I checked the message and a smile automatically form on my face.

"What made you stay?" Kianna looked at me, waiting for what I have to say.

"Him." My turn to stare back at her and answered in a matter of fact tone.

"He made me feel things, mga bagay na hindi ko pa naranasan noon. Or kung naranasan ko man, he made it feel different. One day, nagising na lang ako so deeply fallen. I didn't want to have what ifs. Natakot din ako." I heaved.

"Pero kasi, nung nagtalo yung masasakit sa masasayang moments with him mas madaming masaya kami. Kaya bakit ako magpapatalo sa isang bagay lang?" Kiefer somehow changed me, and surprisingly I liked the changed me. Tanggap ko naman na brat ako, kapag nagagalit ako I'd say things I don't really mean.

"But the turning point was.."

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I am so damn mad at him, leche siya! Hindi lang napagbigyan akala mo naman hindi ako nageffort.

From: 💚💙

Let's talk tomorrow. Wala ka sa mood, wala din ako. Bye.

Kapal ng mukha! Nakakainis. Due too much frustration I tweeted and definitely it was a spur of the moment for right after venting out in twitter I noticed that my mentions are chaotic.

"Shit." I back read my tweets.

"Nasobrahan ka na ata Potch." Sakto Mom walked inside my room and sat beside me on my bed.

"Hindi ako to." I facepalmed and started crying.

"Bakit kasi pinapahirapan ang sarili potch?" Hinihimas ni Mama ang likod ko.

"Ayoko siyang suyuin. Why me? Ako babae." I exclaimed as I face my Mom not minding my bloodshot eyes.

"It's not as if I didn't even try." Alam ko how important the event is pero what am I supposed to do? Coach didn't let me watch his exhibition game. Kahit anong pagpapaalam ko wala talaga. Tapos ngayon ipaparamdam niya sakin na wala akong ginawa? Or ginagawa man lang about it? Gusto ko. Gustong gusto ko, pero sana alam niya na may priorities kami.