Us Happened

..

Mika

Whirlwind. One word to describe our love story. People told us we happened way too fast. He just came from a failed relationship and so do I.

Many doubted, few were entertained and others just simple don't care.

Actually, us happened, on the right time. Perfect moment. For both of us believed, we fell in love even before me realized we are. For we both has to learn things with someone other than ourselves to be truly ready for a kinship that will last.

Us, wasn't fast. We had to wait years to finally be in each other's arms. We had to experience such heartaches and other emotions separately before we fully commit to each other. He is the perfect gentleman, Kiefer takes care of me like I'm the fragile one. He treats me like her Queen, gives me everything anything I didn't even asked for. With him, it's different. But...

I had to choose.

"He is so ready, and I'm not." I confessed, tears falling from my eyes they're not stopping. I felt my Mama's hands caressing my back. Assuring me that, I'm not alone. That she's here for me.

"Feeling ko, I'll regret this." I told my Mama, I can't believe this could be our ending. 

"Siguro, but don't rush yourself. He has to respect your decisions." Mama said comforts me. 

"Ma, what if... What if I lose him?" I faced my Mom. Not minding my swollen eyes.

"Then... You two aren't meant to be."  Mama said in a matter of fact tone. Can I just accept that? Is that even logical?

Is forever really just a word?

...

We're sitting on the sea shore, the sun's about to hit the sack. Hands intertwined, my head on his shoulder.

"Nakakalungkot that a beautiful day like this has to end." I told him, I felt him stare at me then back to the sun. Our body with sand, our hair wet with salt water, our skin almost tan, well he's naturally brown colored, kidding.

"It ended but it doesn't have to be forgotten. A day as beautiful as today won't end baby,
it stays here.." He pointed where his heart is with his free hand. 

"In our heart. Along with the other beautiful memories we made and will continue making together." Kiefer said, such a cheeseballs.

"I love you." Dumbfounded by his romantic words. He smiled at me and kissed my temple.

For a moment we are both silent, enjoying the serenity of this place.

"Baby..." He said breaking the silence, I face him. Waiting. I don't know why but there's something in her tone that 's making me uneasy. 

"What if..." Kiefer seems nervous. I brushed his hair with my hand.

"Go on babe." I encourage him, he took a deep breath and what he said next shocked me.

"What if I ask you to marry me." Finally he blurted out. I did not respond, waiting for his punchline but nothing came.

"Ar-are you serious?" Frowning and stuttering at the same time I asked him. Perhaps both of us were stupefied.

I tried reading his expression but I couldn't. Suddenly, I felt.... He can't be serious right? All was just a slip of the tongue, nadala lang siya ng romantic ambiance.  

"Just..just kidding baby." Half smiling he told me and I was relieved.

"Alam ko naman na may punchline ka pa eh. Ikaw pa ba? Mr. Banatero." Suddenly it was awkward, as if there's this imaginary wall between the two of us. Suddenly, I'm lost. He gave me a weak smile and invited me to take a bath so we could go back to our hotel. He's still holding my hands but everything feels empty.

That's where everything started falling apart.

We went home the next day, and it's different. He was still thoughtful, asking me if I want to eat or if I need anything. Still he's usual self. Guiding me, holding my hands, making me lean and sleep on his shoulder but I'm not sure now what's lacking.

The others were quiet, I don't know if they knew what's happening or just respecting our privacy. We were welcomed by his family at the airport, we kissed and exchanged hello's and hi's.
But Kiefer is still not his usual perky side.

"Are you okay?" We're at the back seat, Tita Mozzy said earlier she prepared dinner for us and wants us to eat before heading home. I called Mom to tell her that.

"Yeah." He didn't even look at me when he said it coldly, naramdaman ko na lang na kinuha niya ang kamay ko at hinawakan ito. His touch, para bang sinasabi sakin na wag kang mawawala. Wag akong bibitaw.

What's happening? Everything just seems too vague.

The days flew fast, and it got me all stressed out. Training for Philippine Team's starting and we merely see each other. Para bang bigla wala na kaming oras sa isa't isa.

I'm collecting my stuff, about to head home when Kim and Ara came.

"Ye." Kim called me, umupo siya. I'm standing, yung bag ko katabi niya. Sa gilid ko si Ara. They share the same facial expression. Kanina pa sila ganyan, nalilito ako.

"Uy, ano? Sabay kayo?" I asked them, but they both don't look thrilled.

"Creepy niyo, what's up? Gutom ba-" Ara cut me, on my face is her phone. In her phone is a photo of Kiefer...holding an unknown girl in the waist, and seems like they're dancing. Too intimate.
What the hell is this?!?

"Anong nangyayari? Do you know about this?" Kim asked me. Certainly, I am not aware. Nanghihina ako. Kaya ba hindi niya na ko madalas tawagan, itext at bisitahin dahil may bago na siya?! Yun ba yon?!

Tangina niya!

"Ye, umamin ka. May problema kayo?!" Ara's interrogating me pero hindi ko ata kaya. There's a lump on my throat that's keeping me to speak. Hindi ko kaya. I can't feel my legs, any moment now I'm sure I'll just break down. I had to ran away. Fast. And I did.

...

Sana ang feelings parang post sa instagram at twitter na kapag dinelete mo, mawawala din. Siya mismo ang nagsabi sakin na wag kong ugaliin ang pagdedelete once naipost na, because life won't work that way. Ano na ngayon?

My phone's ringing non-stop. Kanina niya pa ako tinitext at tinatawagan. Sila Ara nireplayan ko, sinabi ko lang nasa bahay na ko. Dumiretso ako sa kwarto at doon umiyak. Everything is just.....heartbreaking.

Sa ganito na lang ba magtatapos ang relationship namin? Akala ko pa naman, eto na.

From: My Forever 💑
I'm outside, let's talk.

Ready na ba ako? Is this the end?

My thoughts:
I'm feeling a bit wicked today.

Edited, hindi ko napansin that I wrote Kiefer this is all Mika's POV don't be confused.