His Unattractive Mate

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The tears burst out like water from a dam, spilling down my face. I feel the muscles of my chin tremble like a small child and I look toward the night sky, as if the stars could soothe me.
There is static in my head once more, the side effect of this constant rejection , constant stress I live with. I hear my own sounds, like a distressed child, raw from the inside. It takes something out of me I didn't know I had left to give.

That's the way it is when people are hard. It's like a theft of the spirit, an injury no other person can see.

I laid back on the slightly wet grass closing my so sore eyes. I had found an empty field after I left the pack house .

I reopened them after a few minutes staring up in the night as if I'm the flora of nature, alive and unseeing, existing only as myself.

With eyes closed I am at home at the servant house and the blackness around is my cell, a place in which my dreams cannot flow freely. So, as the moon and stars shine above the passing clouds of ink, as the air releases the heat of the day, my brain conjures a new story for my inner eye.

A story that I'm the star in , that I'm the prettiest in , that I'm the most perfect in . Maybe my family will love me in this story? A story where I never feel a rejection.
The milky speckles twirled and danced along the sky in various patterns, tugging at the corners of my lips in a way that almost made me smile.

I was daydreaming, something my mind did often . I couldn't escape it and I didn't want too .
It was hard to shove aside the worries corrupting my mind, but eventually, I stopped thinking and just... forgot . I was alone.

I felt so free I was ready to become apart of the stars .

I was so lost in my daze , I wanted to stay in this dreaming hallucinate state forever . I let out a faint breath smiling sadly knowing I wouldn't be able to .

I watched as Jonah approach me, flowers in his hands . My favorites. I felt his warmth as he wrapped his arms around me . Jonah pulled me in a tight hug , my heart wouldn't stop fluttering ."You are so so beautiful." He whispered in my ear.

I blushed bashfully ,"Thank you." I stared into his beautiful eyes. He was everything I wanted . Everything I needed . My soul wanted him.

Soon everything started to fade , the joy I felt was gone as quick as I had it .

I sat up quickly tears forming in my so sore eyes , I shook my head weakly. I looked around the dark field where I was laying . Somehow there were my favorite flowers everywhere .

How did I not notice this before ?

I reached touching the delicate flower gently a soft sigh leaving my lips.

My head snapped up hearing steps in the darkness.