Make believe were for dreamers... But there's nothing wrong with it, dreaming is nice... But you prefer to stay in reality. Because no matter what you do, even your dreams were ruinous.
Your relationship with Kai wasn't the best. There were times he would yell at you, telling you that you were nothing but a nuisance, a waste of space, a big mistake, one of those disease carriers... That without him, you wouldn't have survived. That you're useless without him. Keep in mind that you were only five and he was seven at that time. And hearing those from him mutated your mind into a perfect, submissive little doll. Always following brother's examples, you strived to be like him. That was a big mistake.
You did everything to just gain his approval and affection, but all he did was to lower your esteem and gave you inferiority complex. Some brother he is. And from a real young age, you learned to cope with pain. At five years old, you experienced this fiery inferno while you lived with him. All you wanted was to be loved by him, to gain his approval... But was that too much to ask?
A simple, "Thank you, sister/brother," or maybe a, "Good job," would be enough. But no, all you got were heart shattering words dripping with venom to the point where you contemplated suicide. With excessive harsh judgement, you accepted yourself as this waste of space.
Was he aware of what he was doing to you? The scars he left in your heart? The tear jerking words he says that branded itself in your memories as those said memories were on loop 24/7? The pain he had caused you and shaped you into this person you are now?
The worst part is, he doesn't seem to notice the fact of what he has done to your being. Maybe he knows what's he's doing, maybe not. Which is both worse. Some brother he is.
"Chisaki Y/N?" A knock erupted from your door. Looking up, you saw the boys who had the courage to fight Chisaki. Your heart dropped in your stomach at the mere mention of your last name... You no longer wanted to be ever associated with your brother.
"Just... Call me Y/N," you sighed, as you leaned you head on your pillow. Your body still felt numb from all the fighting that happened. Both boys glanced at each other, with an apologetic look. You sat up and leaned by your bed frame.
"Y-you can come in, it's alright," you gestured them, as they shyly shuffled towards your bed and sat on mono blocks. "So... Uh, I never caught your names," you shyly acknowledged.
"Togata Mirio, nice to meet you Chi-uh, Y/N-chan!" Mirio cheerfully gleamed, with a bright smile. "Hero name Lemillion."
"O-oh, Midoriya Izuku, hero name Deku," the green haired male chimed in. "Y-you're Overhaul's sibling?" Your smile dropped to a frown, as he became visibly upset to the drastic change of your mood.
"I-I'm sorry, that was rude of me to-"
"Nonononono, it's okay- I know I can't change my past," As much as you want to, you can't escape it. "You both did a great job out there. Thank you for stopping... Thank you for stopping my-my br-... my brother," no matter what you can do, you can't seem to refer to him as your brother.
"We were just doing what was needed to do," Mirio smiled. Your smile widened as you remembered.
"So you're the one who sent me flowers?" You asked, as you attempted to scoot over, but failed. "Yellow roses are usually associated with new beginnings... Friendships... I appreciate it, thanks." you smiled, as a red started to spread from his cheeks.
"I-uh, Izuku helped me to chose," Mirio shyly proclaimed, rubbing the back of his neck with a shy smile. Your smile dropped. "Whatever is the matter?" He asked, as he noticed the sudden shift of your mood.
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Pick your poison (BNHA Villains X Reader) COMPLETE
Fanfic! COMPLETE ! Because villains need love, too. A warning, the villains aren't really known to be soft individuals and for the sake of sticking to canon, some one shots will contain some disturbing things like abuse and such. But don't worry! I can a...