The Beauty Of Senses~ Inuyasha X Reader

A Deafening Departure

"What do you mean?" Inuyasha asks me slightly confused.

"What would you do, and how would you feel if I told you that there's someone in this world that loves you?" I ask him again.

"I don't know." He replies in a quiet tone.

"To tell you the truth, I've been in love with you for quite a while now Inuyasha." I finally tell him.

I feel my heart beating faster as I said that, but I finally got it out and to the person that my feelings are meant for. I hear Inuyasha let out a quiet gasp.

"What?" Inuyasha says with slight disbelief in his voice.

"I know it's a bit sudden and perhaps a bit much for you to handle, but I don't think I can hold back my feelings anymore. I love you Inuyasha, I love you so much to the point that it pains me to tell you this. Because I know that your heart still belongs to Kagome, by telling you this I know I'm being selfish because I'm giving you this burden of my feelings when you are still in the process of moving on." I go on to explain.

"Then why tell me?" Inuyasha asks me with a low voice.

"Because I want to tell someone one of my inner most feelings for a change, my love for you Inuyasha. Now that I've told you, can you answer my question from earlier? Knowing that there's someone out there who loves you for you, what would you do? Would you learn to open up your heart again?" I ask him one more time.

Inuyasha doesn't say anything, so I wait like I always have.

"I don't think I'll be doing anything, my heart is still closed off to love. I don't know when it will open up again and I don't know if I want it to." He finally says.

I feel my heart drop, but I don't want to give up. He's stubborn, so I'll be just as persistent.

"I can wait." I tell him confidently.

"What?" He asks me surprised and slightly shocked.

"If you say that one day that you can learn to open up your heart again, I'll wait. I'll wait till that day. I want to help you overcome it no matter how long it will take." I tell him.

"Why would you do that? My heart has been shut off for years, I don't think it will open to anyone ever again." He answers back.

Although he says that, but I can hear in his voice that he's hesitant and he sounds worried about something.

"Remember what I said Inuyasha? Anything that you don't want to do, no one can force you. I'm not asking you to say that you love me or anyone, I know your heart is closed off. I told you my feelings because I can't suppress them anymore. What I want to know is, now that you know that there's someone that loves you, will you learn to find the key to unlock your heart and learn to love someone else?"

"No." He says simply.

I feel my heart stop again, devastation hits me hard from that one single word.

"Why?" I ask him dumbstruck.

"Because all love does is bring me pain. I told you, I lost Kikyo, and I lost Kagome. They were two of the women that I loved the most. I have told myself to never love anyone else again." Inuyasha explains himself.

"So it's about pain and lost again? Are you that scared of them that you won't allow you to feel one of the most precious feelings again? Winter is coming to an end in less than 2 weeks, and I'll be leaving. But if you want me to stay I'll stay. I'll swallow my feelings for you and pretend that they never existed and I'll stay by your side as someone who you can tell your heartache and thoughts too until the day you won't feel anymore pain. Will you allow me to do that Inuyasha? Will you allow me to be that person?" I ask him trying to hold my tears.