So Full, So Empty

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I suppose a new collection

Doesn't mean that all is perfect

A page turned, lessons learned

Indeed, good, but not even the happiest

Have their lives together


I still lay awake to ponder

How can I feel so aimless? 

Why, when in fine company

With everything I could ever wish to possess

When I am free and fresh

Why do I feel so worthless? 


I have everything, I am blessed 

I have it all, except joy authentic

On paper it all adds up to bliss

But emotion and longing are forgotten factors

Why do I have everything

Except the one thing I really want? 


Joy isn't found in anyone else

If it is to be wholly mine

I must be capable of finding my soul's joy

I must be able to manufacture

My own sunshine

But I am not as of tonight


Maybe tomorrow I will wake fresh

Maybe I'll find joy in the morning

But tonight, like the nights before

Feels empty and gloomy and lonely to the core

My life looks so full

But my soul is so empty. 

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