"BE MINE" 💞 INAZUMA ELEVEN/GO X READER [ONE SHOTS] - [CLOSED]

Shindou Takuto x OC ~ Memories

Gin: this is for AKIXDORI
I read Ren's description and noticed how much he/she has changed. I'm really sorry for being such a drag. But I never forgot about this. I just wanted to find my passion in writing for IE again so here it is ❤

Huge disclaimer: Yoshida Ren (the OC) belongs to AKIXDORI
Check out the details in Hika's book, Sakura Nights. The quote I included here is also said by Ren him/herself.

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Yoshida Ren.

That name was etched on the back part of his notebook. A confused look plastered on his face as he tried to search through the back of his mind of the time when he had written it there. He allowed himself to fall into a downright state as his mind struggled as to how that writing existed.

Now that he saw it, memories flowed like stream to the forefronts of his consciousness. Memories, together with questions hit him like he was some kind of empty basin that had waited so long to be filled again. Questions that he knew were to never be answered unless life would grant him a miracle, a wish, to easily figure out and save himself from this utter confusion.

Although he could make up the answers himself, he wished there was a different answer to it. A different fate that would be etched into it. But no. It was inevitable. What’s done is done. Life has decided its course through their lives. It is beyond irrevocable. Only God, the Supreme Being, if ever he believed in Him, is the only one who could grant him the answers that he wanted to get.

A finger softly and gently glided down the letters written in Japanese. He hadn’t thought of doing it. It was an autonomous gesture, initiated by his submission to his reminiscing. His mind danced off from one memory to another. This was accompanied by his heartbeat which he thought was getting louder and louder by the second he allowed himself to fall in such a passive state.

“I really hate your eyes. I can’t read your emotions at all, but maybe that’s why I fell for you in the first place?”

There it is. Those words haunted his thoughts like a nightmare in broad daylight. As if a monster had awoken from its long slumber and gradually devouring him piece by piece on the inside, in the most revolting way, since it hasn’t fed itself for a long time.

Shindou blinked. His fists clenched at the thought this whole reminiscing thing is giving him. He could allow it to disappear. He will have to commit to himself to never bring this up on himself again. That way he’d be able to live a normal life, continue with focusing on what he has to focus on. But no, such an act felt like it was a mortal sin for him.

He gripped the paper that held Ren’s name, slightly crumpling it in the process. After a moment, he relaxed, took a deep breath, and allowed himself to embrace the thoughts that washed over him. He closed his notebook and left to go to soccer practice. The new members of Inazuma Japan are surely giving him a pain in the neck. But that would not be important as of now. Soon enough, he’ll finally be able to be with Ren again, he just doesn’t know it yet.

Shindou mumbled before retreating from his quarters.

“You will always have a place in my heart… Yoshida Ren…”