BFG was destroyed by the only woman he's ever loved and is no longer the man he once was. Can he finally move forward with his life or will his past refuse to stay away?
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She's here. It was one thing to see her on the news but to see her in person. She's even more beautiful than I remember, if that's possible, even with the cut on her head. All the memories come flooding back as I ride away from the town, I don't know where I'm heading, I just know I can't be there right now.
I remember those eyes, a golden hazel that lit up like gold when she was happy. Although her eyes looked different now, older, tired and in pain. Her hair was always so soft as I ran my fingers through it, I used to make fun of how long it took her to get ready, her hair and make up always had to be perfect before she would step outside the bedroom, but I loved that about her, she always wanted to look perfect for me and I always told her I didn't care. I guess it doesn't matter anymore because she didn't have any make up on and her hair was limp and lifeless, not the style she spent an hour always trying to perfect.
I have so many questions. On the news the family photo made it look like she was happy. Why does her husband think she's been kidnapped? And of all places why is she here? It's been years since she left me without a word and I've never heard from her before, so why now? The news said she had a son but I didn't see him, is he safe? No matter what I feel about Sarah I wouldn't want her child to be hurt.
Man this is fucking with my head. I thought if I ever saw her I would only feel angry, hurt and hatred. It makes me angry that I don't. I thought if I ever saw her again I'd only feel hate, but seeing her there, hurt and scared. Fuck. All of it came back, she was the love of my life, my soul mate. We used to do everything together, we would meet for lunch if she could get away from work, we would go out together, party together with the club. Izzy, Cordelia and Indigo treated her like one of their own and my brothers accepted her even with out the property cut and tattoo. She was it for me and when I saw her that love came right back, burning in my chest threatening to consume me.
I give up riding and pull over on the side of the road, I've ended up deep in the woods. I climb off my motorcycle and walk over to the nearest tree, slamming my fist into its thick trunk. Physical pain is easier than the pain I feel inside right now. I pull out my cell, which has been buzzing furiously to see texts from most of the club asking where I am, if I'm ok and if I need to talk. Then I come across a text from Cordelia
Cece: hey B I hope you're ok. If you need me you know where I am. Sarah is coming to the clinic when the bakery closes, I'll text you when the coast is clear.
Cordelia never could turn off nurse mode. Even if she's pissed at Sarah, which I know she is, she'll still help her. Fuck! Why can't I hate her? I should after all she did, but as soon as I saw her I couldn't. I'll just stay away from her and hopefully she'll go running back to her rich husband.
Man I'm an idiot. I just decided to stay away from her and what am I doing? I'm hiding in a truck following her from the clinic. I have too many questions, where is she staying? What the hell is going on so I'm following her. I guessed she was going to the motel but she drove right passed it.
She keeps driving out of town and then pulls into a clearing by the lake. We used come to the lake all the time, she loved taking the motorcycle and just having a picnic by the water. I pull in behind some trees as she stops the car and turns off the engine. I quietly climb out of the truck and get as close as I can without being seen. Sarah gets out of the car and opens the door for her son, so he is with her. She opens the trunk and pulls out a couple of jackets, it's getting too dark for them to walk around the lake, what are they doing here?
"Ok little one, let's get your medicine and then we can go to sleep." Sarah smiles down at the boy as she smooths his hair. Little one. That was what I used to call her, she would laugh because she is literally the only person smaller than me, I'm 5'7 and she's 5'2.
I watch as her son lies down in the back seat and she covers him with a jacket before getting into the drivers seat and covering herself with a sweater. They're sleeping in her car? I know Sarah can't defend herself and her and her son in a car out here at night isn't safe. I should just leave, I don't owe her anything
"Aww fuck." I sigh as I walk towards the car, why can't I just be an asshole? I knock on the window and Sarah screams
"Derek?" She gasps
"Mommy?" Her son asks sitting up
"It's ok, he's an old friend, you stay here while I talk to him ok?" Sarah smiles before climbing out of the car
"You're sleeping in your car?" I ask as she crosses her arms over her chest trying to stay warm
"Tobias says it's fun because it's like camping and he always wanted to go camping." Sarah smiles sadly
"It's not safe for you and your kid out here." I sigh
"We're ok, I get paid tomorrow so I'll find somewhere to stay." She replies
"There's empty rooms at the clubhouse, you can both stay there."
"I didn't come here for your help Derek, after what I did, I don't deserve it." She looks down at her shoes
"Then why are you here?" I ask
"I just kept driving and this is where I ended up. If I had known Molly was an old lady I wouldn't have taken the job." She shrugs
"You know I'll always regret what I did." She sighs looking up at me, her eyes glassy with tears
"Which part? Leaving without word or aborting our baby?" I ask before I can stop myself and she gasps.
