BFG was destroyed by the only woman he's ever loved and is no longer the man he once was. Can he finally move forward with his life or will his past refuse to stay away?
A/N: Merry Christmas Lovelies! I hope you all have a fabulous holiday! I've done all the prepping I can and will be spending tomorrow drowning in vodka. It's my daughters first Christmas but between my Nonna inspiring mother in law and my husband saying 'My sacks full do you want a present?' A hundred times a day it's going to be interesting! Here's some Christmas eye candy for you lovelies! Xxxx
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I wake up to an empty bed, Sarah must've left for work already. Every time I fuck her I swear it's the last time, but I can't stay away. I love her, I want her, but I don't trust her. If I give her my heart again, or what's left of it, she could stamp on it and leave again. I can't give her the designer clothes and diamonds she had with her ex and the club lifestyle hasn't changed since she left, she could get scared again and run. She asked me the other night if there was a way she could earn my trust back, but I just don't know.
I check my cell and see Cordelia has invited me to her house seeing as I'm not on truck today so I take a shower and head over
"Kids! Uncle Giants here!" Cordelia yells and soon the twins, Colt and Hunter are charging me, I love them, but fuck they're going to be deadly when they grow up if they're this vicious now
"Fuck!" I curse as they dive on me and I crash to the hardwood floor
"Uncle B!" Lily gasps as she runs off and then comes back with the almost full swear jar
"The twins broke their dresser last night and Killer tried to fix it." Cordelia shrugs as she looks at the jar, I slip a dollar bill into the jar and then get back to wrestling for survival. One wrapped around my leg and the other hanging upside down over my shoulder I make it to the living room and toss Hunter down on the couch before Colt let's go of my leg and dives on his brother, then I see a blur run passed me
"Ok kids enough wrestling, let's watch a movie." Cordelia calls with Tobias behind her back peaking out
"Is he ok?" I mouth and Cordelia shakes her head. We set the kids up with a movie and I pull Cordelia to one side
"What's up with Tobias?" I ask
"He's a sweet kid and he loves them, but when they wrestle he said it reminds him of mommy and daddy." Cordelia sighs
"I'm looking into child therapists and I'm going to recommend one for Sarah because I think it would help Toby." She adds
"Fuck. Sarah told me what that fuck would do to her, made my fucking blood boil, if I got my hands on him I fucking swear..."
"Tell me about it. If I got my hands on him it'd make the way I killed the sons of Satan look like a damn picnic." Cordelia growls
"Sarah said he only hit Toby once though?" My brows furrow
"Yeah, but it's what he saw Charles doing to Sarah, I don't think she realises how much he saw and heard, he's such a scared little thing, whenever Killer is here he sticks to me, he's scared of men." Cordelia shakes her head, he's a cute little dude, I haven't spent much time with him but no four year old should see what he's seen.
"Am I the only one who thinks it's a little off that Charles just signed the papers and never contacted her again?" Cordelia asks
"I was thinking the same myself, I've had Avery watching over the bakery when she's there, just in case." I reply
"What's going on with you two? I know you've been having sex." Cordelia smirks
"I don't know. I love her, I don't think I ever stopped loving her, but I can't trust her, what if she leaves again?" I groan as I scrub my hand down my face
"Well I love you and don't want her to hurt you again, but I love her and I don't want you to hurt her back either. You should both sit down and talk it out, with clothes on." She smirks again and I roll my eyes
"Mom! Colt broke the table!" Lily yells from the living room
"God damn it I'm going to lock those devil twins in the gym if they keep this up." Cordelia groans as I follow her back to the living room, the coffee table is now missing a leg and Hunter lies beside it, Colt above him looking triumphant, they're gonna fit into the club just fine I smirk to myself. Then I look over to Tobias and he's sat on the couch, knees up to his chest and he wraps his arms around them tightly.
"You sick of them wrestling too? Cordelia doesn't know what to do with them." I chuckle as I sit on the couch beside him
"I just don't like it." He whispers as he shrugs
"Yeah but they aren't hurting each other they both enjoy it so it's different. Colt and Hunter love each other, that's just how they play." I explain
"But Mommy would always cry when her and Daddy wrestled." That wasn't fucking wrestling.
"Because Mommy didn't want to, see how I wrestled with Colt and Hunter, but I didn't hurt them and I don't wrestle with Lily or Diesel because they don't want to. No one is hurting each other here because we all love each other like family." I explain
"So that's ok?" He asks pointing to Hunter who has Colt in a headlock
"See the smile on Colts face, it's ok." I chuckle and that seems to calm him a little, fuck I feel sorry for this kid, his only male role model was a woman and child beating fucker, maybe with more time around the club he'll see how men should be.
"How do you like to play?" I ask and his face lights up as he pulls up a dinosaur from beside him, dinosaurs it is.
As I walk back to the clubhouse I think about the afternoon I spent with Toby. He's such a great kid, he loves his mom so much. I could really see myself taking care of him, being the male role model he needs, teaching him to ride a bike, the right way to take care of his mom, how to shave, fuck. Sarah may have lost my baby but I could really see Toby as my son.
I need to figure shit out and see if I really could have something with Sarah before I even think about the kid, he's been let down by his father too many times for me to let him down too.
"Don't hurt yourself." Ace smirks as I walk into the bar
"Huh?" I ask confused
"Thinking too hard, don't want to hurt yourself." He chuckles
"Fuck you." I smirk as I sit beside him
"Hey I saw Sarah in the store today, didn't know you had it in you dude, congrats." He says as he slaps my back
"Huh?" I ask again, this fucker needs to stop talking in riddles
"Sarah was buying pregnancy tests, congratulations dude, looks like you're joining Socket." He laughs, if I wasn't sitting down I'd fall down. Sarah's pregnant? We've been using condoms, is she planning to tell me or is this another secret? Is she going to run again? If she's pregnant with my kid this time she's fucking staying. Ace's lips move but I can't hear what he's saying from the blood rushing in my ears as I head straight for my motorcycle.
