BFG was destroyed by the only woman he's ever loved and is no longer the man he once was. Can he finally move forward with his life or will his past refuse to stay away?
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I shouldn't have fucked her. I was a fucking idiot to think that I could fuck her and walk away, leaving my feelings behind. I love her. Of course I fucking do. Instead of helping me get over her all of the past has come back to me, everything we went through together, all the laughs, happiness and love, along with the hard times.
I want to storm back into her room and tell her she's mine, but how could I ever trust her? I would spend every day worrying that she would leave me again. If she was scared to be involved in the club back then wouldn't it be even worse now she has a kid? Tobias is cute but could I be a good stepdad? Would he hate me because I'm not his real dad?
"Why so glum chum?" Scarlett asks as she sits down beside me. I'm at Scars again trying to numb my feelings with booze, but it's not working
"Ace is at the bar trying to convince Daisy he'd be a much better member of their ménage trois than you." Scarlett smirks
"He can have them." I shrug, yeah I like Angel and Daisy but they're like friends, I'm not attached to them, but I do care about them.
"You know you can talk to me, you seemed to be getting better and now you've turned back, I can guess why." Scarlett says placing her hand on my shoulder
"I fucked her." I admit.
"I thought it was get over them by getting under some one else, but whatever works for you." Scarlett chuckles
"Yeah it didn't quite work out that way." I sigh
"Oh I see, you thought it was a last pound in Sarah town but now it's got you wanting more." I nod
"Well she's getting divorced so that won't stop you." She shrugs
"But how can I ever trust her again? It wouldn't work." I empty my glass and Scarlett signals Daisy to bring me another
"Well, I know I didn't know Sarah that well before she left but I saw how happy you two were, and it seems to me like she's done a lot of growing up since then, so things could be different this time." I nod to Daisy as she places down my drink and takes the empty glass away
"You know, when I first opened the club Knuckles was here every night, paranoid I would find some one younger, or that I would start fucking the dancers, it pissed me off that he didn't trust me, but you know what huge sluts he and I are." She laughs
"Now he's home with our daughter while I work and when I close I'm going straight home to the man I love. I never thought I would be monogamous, but now I can't see me being with anyone else. You and Sarah can rebuild that, it might take time, but if you're meant to be together it'll happen."
"When did you get so wise?" I smirk
"Eugh I know right? I'm old now." She shudders.
"What about her son? It's not just Sarah anymore."
"Well after what Cordelia found out today I think it'd be good for the poor boy to have a decent father figure."
"What did Cordelia find out?" I ask
"Fuck, me and my damn mouth. Promise me you won't go crazy." She sighs and I nod
"Well we all figured she ran because her husband was the one to hurt her and Tobias right? Well turns out he'd been doing it for years, Sarah got beaten on almost daily and her son saw more than any kid should." That's what Sarah meant when she called him a monster, no wonder she was so upset after seeing the lawyer and thinking her husband would take their son. I feel my blood rise to boiling as I think about what Sarah has been through
"Dude you promised." Scarlett says obviously seeing the anger written on my face. Even though Sarah left me, even after all the years I hated her, I have to protect her.
"Look Cordelia only told me because she wants me to ask my brother to look into that asshole, you can't tell Sarah I let it slip or she won't trust us." Scarlett pleads placing her hand on mine on the table.
"Have you talked to your brother yet?" I ask. Scarlett's brother Mike works for the same secret government agency as Adeline, only he took over running the show when it turned out their boss was corrupt. They have access to anything and everything
"Not yet, I'll call him in the morning, he should be able to help." Scarlett replies
"Look I know how you must feel because Cordelia and I both want to haul ass to Boston and make this fucker pay but he is famous, he's rich and he's connected, we can't do what we did with Alec. We need to handle this the right way." Scarlett explains and I know she's right, but that doesn't mean if I ever come face to face with him I won't fuck him up.
"I gotta go." I say as I finish my drink and stand up
"B, remember what I said." She says before pulling me into a hug
"And if you want to talk seems I'm the damn agony aunt now." She smirks and I nod as I walk away heading straight for my motorcycle.
I knock on the door but there's no movement inside so I knock again, I hear movement and then the door cracks open
"Shh, Tobias is sleeping." Sarah whispers
"Can we talk?" I whisper back and she looks back at Tobias before stepping out into the hall
"Is everything alright?" She asks looking up at me but I can't help from looking down at her bare legs in those little sleep shorts
"Indigo gave them to me, I didn't pack pyjamas." Sarah says crossing her arms over her chest, nothing I didn't see this morning.
"Why did you leave your husband?" I ask bluntly, shock spreading on her face at my question
"I uh... it's complicated Derek." She sighs looking at the floor
"He broke your sons arm and did that to your head." I say as I run my finger over the healing wound on her forehead
"Not exactly." She avoids my gaze as she bites on her lip
"Well he either did or he didn't."
"We were arguing at the top of the stairs, he shoved me and I fell back because of my high heels, I was holding Tobias." She explains
"That the first time he shoved you?" I ask already knowing the answer
"Do we have to do this now Derek? It's late." I tilt her chin up to finally make her look at me and I see the shame, pain and fear in her eyes
"How many times did he hurt you?" I ask looking into her eyes
"Too many times." She whispers so quietly I almost didn't hear it
"Tell me how he hurt you." I growl
"Derek...."
"Tell me everything." I say firmly and finally she gives in and nods.
