BFG was destroyed by the only woman he's ever loved and is no longer the man he once was. Can he finally move forward with his life or will his past refuse to stay away?
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I shouldn't have used Derek like that. I know how much I hurt when I left, but I'm sure I hurt him more. Having sex with Derek was a mistake because I can't hurt him again, I hope I haven't confused his feelings, although he was out the door as soon as we were done. That was the most incredible sex I think I've ever had, although I've only slept with Derek and Charles. It was so different to how sex used to be with Derek and it was amazing. I'll always love him, but I need to let him go so I don't hurt him.
After crying some more I pulled myself into the shower, I need a plan, no rash decisions this time. I need to figure out how I can get Charles to divorce me without taking Tobias and putting me in jail.
I don't have any proof of the abuse I suffered, because when you're married to a surgeon you don't need to go to the hospital for stitches or pain pills. I was always so scared of Charles I never told anyone what he did to me, if some one noticed a bruise I fell over playing with Tobias, I tripped on my heels or I burned myself cooking. I always wore heavy make up to cover my bruises, and we always put on a happy front in public, so no one would suspect a thing.
While I didn't want to bring Tobias into this the lawyer said Charles defence could say I've brainwashed our son as well as kidnapping so what Charles did to our son and what he saw Charles do to me wouldn't help.
I need to sit down and figure out a plan, something legitimate and solid proof so that I can divorce Charles and keep Tobias safe. From now on only good thought out decisions, no more stupidity.
After changing the sheets on my bed I walk over to Cordelia's house where Tobias is playing with his new friends while I talked to the lawyer. I open the front door to be greeted by Max, Cordelias German Shepherd, he's a lot older now but he still remembers me. I head into the living room where Cordelias four kids are playing with Tobias, he hasn't seen me yet so I hang back and watch for a little while, he's so much happier here, I need to find a way to keep him from returning to Boston.
"Mommy!" Tobias jumps up and runs over to hug me, I lift him into my arms
"Hey little one, having fun?" I ask, seeing him smile making me smile too.
"It's so much fun, I like my friends." He beams
"Where's Cordelia?" I ask
"She's in the kitchen fighting with dad." Diesel says rolling his eyes, he's definitely not the baby he was when I left
"You keep playing and I'll be back." I say as I set Tobias down and head for the kitchen
"Fuck the club!" Cordelia yells
"Fuck the club are you kidding me!?" Killer yells back
"I mean, forget that you're president of a motorcycle club, but as a man, you heard what that sweet little boy said. Whether we're bikers or not we have to help them, if that's the kind of stuff he's seen imagine what that motherfucker did when his son wasn't around, they can't go back Adrian." They're fighting about me? What has Tobias told them? He's normally so good at not telling people about his daddy.
"I know it's bad, but you can't just go to Boston and take out such a high profile person, regardless of what he's done. You'll leave our kids behind when you go to jail and they will tear the club apart." Killer sighs
"We have to do something, I know Sarah left but she's family to me and now her son is too." Cordelia replies
"Look they can stay here as long as they want, we'll do what we can to protect them, but we are not going after her husband." Killer says
"I'd kill for five minutes alone with that fucker, what kind of man hurts a little boy and his mother?" My vision blurs from tears forming, I should just take Tobias and keep running, I didn't mean to bring the club into this and now they're fighting over me. No. I'm not running anymore
"What did Tobias tell you?" I ask firmly as I step into the kitchen
"Sarah. I'm sorry you shouldn't have heard that I didn't know you were here." Cordelia says stepping away from Killer
"I'll let you two talk." Killer says as he walks away
"Oh Killy?" Cordelia smirks in a mocking tone and Killer growls as he turns back, pulling Cordelia in for a searing kiss before he stomps away.
"We made a deal, after every fight we kiss." Cordelia shrugs with a satisfied smile on her face.
"What did Tobias tell you?" I ask again as she sits at the counter
"Killer came in and he put his hand around my throat to kiss me, Tobias freaked out so I took him to one side to calm him down. I didn't understand what had upset him and he said that he thought Killer was going to strangle me like daddy did to mommy." Cordelia explains and I feel shame travel through me
"I tried to protect him, to stop him seeing me get hurt, but sometimes Charles was too angry and too powerful." I sigh, trying to hold back my tears
"I had no idea it was so bad Sarah, I thought when you left was the first time he got physical, did he hurt you often?" She asks
"He was lovely at first, he was funny and kind and chivalrous. The day we landed back from our honeymoon he set out rules he expected his wife to follow. When I got pregnant he became the man I fell in love with again and I thought everything would be ok, but it wasn't. He would hit me almost daily towards the end, he only hit Tobias once, from then on I managed to get him to blame me whenever Tobias did something he didn't like, so I took the beatings for him." Cordelia pulls me into a crushing hug as my tears stream onto her shirt
"I don't want your club to be affected by me, I should leave." I say as I wipe my cheeks pulling back from the hug
"Oh hell no. I had no friends before I found this club and not only did I get all the guys I got you too. Yes it hurt when you left but I love you Sarah and I love that little boy too. I'm going to help you find a way out of this and I'm never going to let that fucker hurt you or Tobias again." Cordelia says firmly before hugging me again and for the first time today I feel like I have a chance.
