A Stellaride fan fiction

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2 weeks later
Her funeral was indescribable,I felt like she was there but then she wasn't.
We all stood there in silence,My 18 year old brother cried.
I just stood there I couldn't cry,no matter how emotional I felt the tears wouldn't fall.
I guess I was shocked,I knew she was gone but there was a Heavy hole in my heart,probably going to be there forever.
Background info
Rainy day,freezing cold outside.
Everyone wearing heavy raincoats.
As I heard the priest administer her last rights,my head immediately flooded with all these memories I had as a kid with her.
The time when me and my brothers were little,and we were playing outside.
There was a storm and we didn't want to go inside.
She stayed outside with us anyways.
That's the kind of mom she was,helping,caring and loving.
She just lost it when our dad died.
She was in a deep emotional state.
After he passed,She would always come home drunk,and when we were little we sat across from her on the couch afraid while she injected heroin.
Now that I think of it,there wasn't a lot of happy memories after dad died.

Stella's POV
Severide stood behind me,while I was shaking he was warming me up.
My brother's Nathaniel and Caleb stood beside me as we watched our mother being put into the ground.
I turned my head to talk to Severide.
"Hey,can my brothers come over for a little bit?"
I asked him whispering into his ear.
"You don't even have to ask Stell."
He said back and lightly squeezed my shoulders for reassurance.
The Funeral ended and everyone said their goodbyes.
And I had Stella's two brothers in the back seat,and Stella was in the front staring outside the window.
When we got to his apartment, all three of us sat close together on the couch.
"Do you remember how she used to call you jumper"?
Nathaniel asked me forcing a small smile.
"Yeah,because when I was supposed to be asleep,i was jumping on my bed all the time."
I said with small laughter.
They talked and talked until her brothers had to leave.
Then Stella fell asleep on the couch.
Severides POV
2 hours later and Stella was still asleep.
I lightly shook her awake.
"What is it?"
"You need to eat"
"I'm not hungry".
She said her head falling back on the pillow.
"Come on,eat something,I'll make you something."
What do you want to eat?
Bagels,eggs.pancakes?
She sat up,rubbing her eyes to wake herself.
"No it's fine,I'm not hungry Kelly."
"I'm not shutting you out i promise,I'm just stuck and I'll be stuck until I get over it.
And I don't know when i will get over it,whether it's tomorrow,next week,a month from now."
"I love you,and I think I'm gonna go on a run."
"Why it's dark outside?"
"At least let me go with you".
"Okay."
We went on a run,and Stella beat me again.
When we got home we immediately we changed.
Stella changed into some black sweat pants and a grey long sweatshirt.
I changed into some some nike sweats and went to sleep,with Stella by my side.

I just hoped Stella would eat tomorrow.
If I had to force it then so be it.
She needed to eat,because she was forgetting how to do things all together.
And then sleep caught both of us.

Peace and love ❤️
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