May binabasa akong story wherein 'yong guy, pasimpleng nilalapat ang kamay sa arm rest ng babae. The girl flinched a bit, but eventually she allowed his palm on hers as if nag-meet ang lupa at ang langit. Kinilig ako, but subconsciously, my mind wandered on the year 20-o-8, sa SM cinema, nang manood lahat ng freshmen ng play tungkol kay Moises. Hindi ko na maalala kung sino nasa kaliwa ko, but I remembered you. Ikaw ang sinundan ko sa pila.
This gave me assumption na mas maliit ka sa 'kin because if not, ako dapat ang mauuna sa 'yo. Actually, hindi ako sure kung by height ba ang sequence ng pag-upo. Definitely, not by surname. D ka, S ako. But this didn't seem to matter to me at that point. Mas focus ako sa play. First time ko e.
Nang magsimula, I couldn't help but gape. Para akong nanonood ng film pero in 3d. Lahat ng actors and actresses todo bigay, so when the scene got funny, we laughed, when the scene got weary, we cried, and when the scene got romantic, they teased the actors til they themselves couldn't help but smile.
Hindi ako nakisali. I wasn't one to hoot. Nangingiti lang ako na parang timang. When suddenly, you bumped the side of your palm to mine. Napalingon ako sa 'yo, ikaw sa dula. Immediately.
I got back to the play, ignored it, but after some time, hindi lang gilid ng palad mo naramdaman ko, kung 'di kabuuan na ng kamay mo... sa ibabaw ng kamay ko. My eyes saw them, then you. Pero 'di tulad kanina, hindi mo binaling ang mukha sa play, nanatili kang nakatingin sa 'kin. And you left me tilting my head and asking myself why.
Hindi ko na nagawang i-verbalize iyon. I just pulled my hand away. But to be honest, I had the slightest idea what was that. Ayoko lang talagang mag-assume.
But what if I did assume? What if hindi ko hinila ang kamay ko? What if I flipped my hand and clutched yours and smiled back to you and rested my head on your shoulder? What if I didn't get scared for your sake? What if I allowed myself to be loved?
By you.
But at that age, how was I to know it's love?
At this point, do I know now?
BINABASA MO ANG
Collection of Essays
Kurgu OlmayanEssay is a short piece of writing on a particular subject. This is a collection of essay that I'll try to pile up whenever I feel the need. It expresses my inner most thought, opinions and ideas about love, family and life in general.
