Hopeless Romance

Chapter Twenty

After May punched Sophia we all just stood there in shock. 

Suddenly Sophia screamed, “I’m telling my father.  You are going to be thrown out of here!”

May looked a little scared, but surprised me by laughing. Then she glanced at me. 

“This is about Michael?  Yes, he is nice in bed.  I can see why you would want to keep him for yourself.  Wait, he said that I was his first time, even though I had seen you two together for months.  Oh, right he told me that he hasn’t, he couldn’t, sleep with you.”

Sophia had never strung together so many sentences.   I stood stupidly in my spot asking myself why I had ever told her anything about myself or May.  But hearing her words and seeing the pain on May’s face propelled my feet forward and I rushed to Sophia.  “Shut up Sophia.  For all you have, you will never know love, except maybe from your parents and brother because they have to love you.  You are a sad, sick person.”

Sophia surprised me as a tear escaped her eye.  She quickly brushed it away and her jaw closed tight and she glared at me. 

May grabbed my hand.  We walked a little ways away and then she kissed me. 

Then she whispered, “Yes I’m doing this to make Sophia jealous.  I’ve spent enough time jealous of her.    But, also because I still love you.  Our wonderful times together, your touch, stand out more in my head and heart than what you did with Sophia.  She should be jealous of us.  You are right; she’ll never know what we have.” 

We strolled slowly out of the library, our arms around each other, rubbing the image into Sophia’s brain.  We went straight to my room. 

When we got there May said, “Doing RR missions I’ve learned not to hold grudges.  To tell people every day I love them and forgive.  I don’t waste time because I never know when my time is up.  Getting shot in the back just made that clearer.  It’s just I’ve never been hurt like you hurt me.  I know that might surprise you, everything that has happened to me.  But, I trusted you, felt close to you.  And even though we were having some issues I never doubted you.  In some ways, I feel like you shot me in the back too.  It was so unexpected.”

All I could think to say was, “I’m sorry.”

“Don’t say that any more.  I already know you are.  I forgive you or I wouldn’t be here with you right now.  I don’t want to waste any more time away from the man I love.”  And, she leaned over and kissed me again.

Before my rescue, I had fooled myself into believing that Comp girls were close to the same thing as being with a real person.  With Sophia I had fooled myself into thinking being with her was as hot as it could ever get, and close to the same thing as making love.  But I realized now, I had never actually made love with anyone. 

Making love with May was softer.  She softly kissed me, nibbled my ear, and softly whispered in my ear, “I love you baby.” 

Her voice was low and shaky.  I loved how she sounded.

“I love you too.  Forever.  You are so beautiful and amazing.”  Then we just let our bodies do the talking.

I wanted this to last forever.  I took it very slow.  I wanted to please her.  I took my time. 

Making love with May was so different, so much better, than anything I had felt before.  We were so attuned to each other, focused, listening to and caring what the other liked.  We were connected.  It wasn’t about control or power.  We wanted to show each other the love we felt inside.  We thought about the other more than ourselves.  It was so intense, May’s touch made me tingle all over, a whole full body vibration.  We held nothing back and didn’t care if the whole cave heard us.