Warnings: mention of attempted suicide, mention of cutting,
Ship: cub x scar
Cub POV
I pace the hospital, it's been hours since they took him back, I think to myself as i keep pacing feeling tears fill my eyes once more, "what if he's dead" I mumble to myself, "cub?" I hear a familiar voice, I spin around to see joe standing there looking confused and tfc at the front desk, "why are you here? Are you here for a check up as well?" Joe asks with a worried tone, I shake my head and try to fight back the tears, I see joe frown and bring me into a hug, I break down into sobs and hug him back,"hey hey, whatever it is, I'm sure it's gonna be okay," joe says, "s-scar tried to k-kill him self," I say in between the sobs, I feel joe tense up, "oh god...cub..." joe says and pulls me over to the sitting area and sits me down, "it wasn't you fault , alright? Now I'm gonna go make you a coffee over there," he says pointing to one of those waiting room coffee machines, I nod and sit back.
Hours later after joe left
"Are you cub?" A voice says, I look up and shoot up standing, "is he okay!?" I ask, the doctor nods, "yes we managed to save him before he lost to much blood, he wouldn't be here if you didn't find him," the doctor says with a soft tone, I feel my hole world shatter for just a moment, if I didn't show up to the apartment would I be planning a funeral.. "c-can I see him?" I ask, the doctor nods, "room 213" the doctor says, I nod and walk to the door pressing the button to request to go back there.
the door opens moments after and I walk fast towards scar's room, I count the numbers as I walk, 210, 211, 212, 213, i stop at the door and walk in, I stop as I see scar laying in the hospital bed lifeless like, IV in his arm and a breathing mask, I cover my mouth as I look at him from up and down, I walk over and pull a chair to the side of the bed and sit, "why s-scar? Why would you try to leave me" I say as I try to hold back tears, pulling his hand into mine and using my other hand to move the hair out of his face, I let out a soft sob as I stare at him, I lean in and kiss his forehead as I keep brushing his hair out of his face with my fingers.
"mm..cub?.." scar says as his eyes slowly open, I stare At him with tears falling drop my face, I pull him close, "you b-big idiot! You could have died then what! I would have to watch as the love of my life and best friend get buried! I would have to explain to your family and our friends, that you died! And that I did nothing to stop it! That I didn't even notice that you were feeling depressed and suicidal! How could I have lived with that! How could I have lived with the fact my best friend, was feeling so bad, that he thought death was the only way out of it! I would have lost you scar, I-i can't lose you scar," I say as my voice begins to break and tears keep falling.
"I..I'm sorry! " scar says as tears fall from his eyes and he hugs me tightly, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry" he keeps repeating as I hold him close, I kiss his forehead and hold him tightly and close, "it's not your fault, I wish you could have told someone, told me..." I say, "I didn't want to bother someone with that,"he says in a mumbled tone, I put a hand on his cheek and make him look at me, "you are never a bother to me scar," I say as I wipe his tears, his face begins to heat up as I press my forehead against his, "talk to me...if you ever feel this bad again.....please" I say and he nods slightly and hugs me.
Well, the there will be more of this ship later on,
Next up grumbo
And then xisuma x bdub
