warnings: doubt, crying, death mention,
Ship: Iskall x doc
Doc's POV
I sit in my bed breathing heavily, I feel tears falling from my face onto the ground as I mumble to myself, "I'm fine....I'm fine....I'm f-fine" I mumble, I shakily stand and grab my strap on wings attaching them and grab the trident, I walk out, looking at the night sky and I fly up and off.
I land on a cliff side and sit down, I stare at the calming waves of water, I let myself relax as I let out a sob of mixed emotions, I hug myself as I stare at the water, they are all gone....NHO.... why wasn't it me instead, why was I chosen to stay.., I think to myself as I hear rocket sounds, I quickly wipe my tears as I hear the sound of feet landing, "doc?" The familiar Swedish voice rings threw my ears, "y-yeah?" I say trying to keep my voice from breaking, I hear his footsteps grow closer and I see him sit next to me, I keep my eyes lowered at the ground, "what are you doing up? It's 2 am man," iskall says softly, I frown and fiddle with the grass,"couldn't sl-"he cuts me off, "...you miss the nho don't you?" Iskall says softly, I frown and look up at the Swedish man, his eyes filled with concern.
"Of course I miss them.....I really m-miss t-them" I say my voice breaking, iskall puts his hand on my shoulder,"you can talk to me you know," iskall says softly, as those soft words echo threw my head, I let my guard down and pull iskall into a hug sobbing, I feel his arms wrap around me as he runs his fingers threw my hair, "I-it should have b-been me!" I say with a broken tone, I feel a harsh grab of my chin and iskall forces me to look at him, "no, don't ever think that. They wouldn't have wanted that for you doc! " iskall says semi shouting, "b-but they died iskall! B-because of me! I didn't make the portal safe enough for t-them!" I shout back, iskall frowns and looks me dead in the eyes, "doc....it wasn't your fault....I promise you that, the portal trapped them on the other side....like it has done for every hermit at one point or other..." iskall says softly as he puts a hand on my cheek wiping the tears, "and if I could go back for you.....I ochanged that...And you see yourself different," iskall says with a smile, I feel my face heat up and I stare at the Swedish man, clearly sleep deprived and stressed, but here....for me, I pull him into a kiss, I see his eyes widen before he melts into the kiss.
Small chapter.
