I'd been meeting Peyton this past weeks everyday and it's been a journey getting to know her. I feel like I know her so well yet theirs the biggest part of her I don't know because she closes off when we even get to certain topics. I don't blame her for not sharing everything I have yet to tell her about what I've done.
She's so beautiful every time I've seen her I find one more thing I really like about her. Although I have all my issues that make me want to just pull away from what I'm feeling for her I just wish I could scream it out to the world, I wish I could be with her and that things would become better but let's be real that's all a dream.
In this dream we could be together happy, she wouldn't look at me different for what I've done when I tell her, every mistake I made would slowly get better and my life would be whole again as my kids and Carter would be in my life.
I snap myself out of the depressing trance I've gone into and start driving to the park to meet Peyton. She'd been so different lately I could tell something was wrong so I decided to get her a small stuffed animal which was a giraffe since she'd say I looked like a giraffe which always made her laugh.
When I spot her I instantly run to her with the little giraffe behind my back. She smiles at me saying hi "close your eyes" I say "and hold your hands out"
"I hope you know we're in public which is why I'm closing my eyes since I know you can't kill me" she says and laughs.
I smile as she closes her eyes and puts her hands out, she looks like a literal angle and I just want to hug her but I know that would freak her out.
I place the giraffe in her hands "I know this is random but I just wanted to make you smile" I say as she opens her eyes.
I could see her as she opens her eyes to see the little giraffe, her eyes light up and I can see her smile start to form. She holds close to her and then looks at me "This is the sweetest thing anyone has ever done for me, I love it" she says looking at it again "it even looks like youuuu" she says giggling which made my heart melt.
This girl makes all my bad shit go away with just her smile. I wish I could just tell her how much she helps me, that she's the reason why I haven't fallen so deeply into the whole that could kill me, that she lights up my day by just being her, that she's just simply amazing.
We walk around I catch her staring at the giraffe a lot, it makes me feel like it truly is the first time someone has surprised her with something like this.
Her smile the one she had on since she saw the stuffed animal faded as she read something on her phone. I watched her confused as to why she was frowning, she sighs as she looks at me.
"I have to go Jed texted" she said slight panic in her voice. I'd heard his name a couple of times never really thinking to much about it but it suddenly hit me and my heart was hoping what my mind thought wasn't true.
"Who's Jed?" I ask
"He's my boyfriend" she said looking at me "I'm sorry I have to go but I'll see you tomorrow thank you for today" she said giving me small smile before turning around and walking away. I could tell she was holding on to it really tight like her life depended on it and it gave me this feeling I didn't know what it was.
I should of guessed that she had a boyfriend I mean she's Peyton a literal angel. I'm so dumb and I felt like crap but even when I wanted her to be more than just a friend I'd take her as anything as long as I had her in my life.
I let go of something so amazing once and I wasn't going to do it again over anything.
________________________________
I'm back! Hope y'all liked this chapter! Comment and Vote✨
P.s go check out a story called "A Life He Didn't Want" by Afterfangirl8 it's amazing 😭💜 -Janie
YOU ARE READING
Home
FanfictionSpinoff To At First Sight* This Story follows Brysons Life After Everything Happened and Finidng that person who will support him trough it all.