Always find our way back / Nick Mara

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2 days later

Simon called me yesterday to tell me that I could move in the new house I told Izzy and she told the boys it was time for us to get ready to go get out thing from the old place and take it to the new house. We got to the old place and got everything and put it in the moving truck and we were off to the new house Mae was with her dad for the weekend so I didn't have to worry about her getting hurt while we move everything in. Izzy and I were the first out the cars we ran up to the house and wow it was amazing the boys walk in behind us

"Um why is your house bigger and nicer then ours" Austin ask "I don't know maybe because I'm the favorite Arreaga to Simon" I say making a face at Brandon "no your not I am" Brandon said "you want to bet" he nods his head I pull out my phone and call Simon

The call

Simon: yes

Destiny: hi Simon I just wanted to thank you for the house and it's beautiful

Simon:no problem anything for my favorite Arreaga

Brandon:what I thought I was your favorite

Simon:on Brandon is that you……I……cant……hear you

And with that he hung up I laugh at Brandon "at least I'm mom's favorite" he say but soon regrets it he look at everyone face and everyone had the same face "that's low Brandon" Zion said "and if you know I'm saying it that it's bad" Zion told him

I turned around and hug Nick and Zion they hug me back "hes being mean to me" I say in a baby voice "it's okay" Nick say in a baby voice back we walk away and look at the rest of the house. We walk outside and man it was amazing Brandon tried to talk  to me but I wouldn't let him. We all go and get mine,Izzy and Mae's stuff off we putt it in our rooms and put thing we're they belong.

2 1/2 hours later

We were all done and tired "I'm to tired to drive back home" Austin say I look at Izzy and see look at me we both sit up and yell at the same time

"Sleepover" we yell out the boys look at each other and jump up "sleepover" they yelled out we left the house to go get food and snacks and some movies to watch.

At the store

We just got to the store and we split up to go get things I got all I wanted and some things for the boys I put it in the chart I go over were the movie are located. I got a couple of movies I got 'The lion king, The visit, Fast and Furious(all of them cause I love them all)' and then the boys came and got the movie they wanted. This guy came beside me and wouldn't leave me alone. I keep walking away but the same guy was still there then Nick's comes and kisses me I pull away and look to see if the guy is still there and his not I thank Nick cause he saw the guy to.

We get everything we want an then leave we are now in the car I get a FaceTime call from Steve I answer.

I look into the phone and smile "hey baby I miss you" I say Mae looks up and smile "I miss u to" she say Steve put Mae down and see ran off "just wanted to tell you everything is fine and to enjoy your day off with your friends I got Mae and we'll see you Monday afternoon" he say I nod and smile "thank you have fun and please send me photos of her" I tell him and he nods and waves bye and point the phone to Mae "say bye to mommy" Mae turns around and waves "bye bye Mama"

An with that I hung up I look at every one "aww does mama miss her baby-girl" Zion said I nod and look out the window. We get home and take everything off and go to the basement we start the movies.

5 hours later

We were all watching the movie every one was all cuddled up, soon every- one fell asleep I was the only one up I waited for the movie to finish. When it did I got up and clean everything up making sure to not wake anyone up I turn off the TV anf go upstairs I put everything away. I grab the beer we get early this evening I grab the hoodie I took from Nick years ago I grab a blanket,my phone and speaker and went up to the rooftop I made sure I told Simon to make sure there's a way to the rooftop I get out there and go up I look around and found a spot where it's leveled straight I go and sit on it I make sure it's not wet and sit down I cover myself and contact my speaker to my phone and play music I grab a beer and open it I drink it

I look out to the view and man it was beautiful I loved it I heard footstep I look to see and I saw Nick I turn around and wait for him to sit by he does I give him a beer and he opens it

"What are you doing up here" he started "you only do this when you are thinking or upset/mad" he say I look at him then drink the rest of my beer then open a new one "I'm thinking and I'm upset" I told him

"I know when bee asked if you were fine you said yeah but I saw that you were lying" he said I forget he can read me like a book he still can.

"Maybe I'm not maybe I'm just trying to be okay for the sake of Mae for Brandon for my music career, to show everyone I'm fine when I'm really not when I'm actually going though hell, I'm so hurt and messed up for god sakes I got raped a week ago and I'm pushing it down so I won't have to deal with it but I have to. To tell the truth I never really let myself take in that I lost my sister and now I have to take care of a child that's not mine and that looks just like her mother every fucking day. I have to put my life on hold. I broke up with the love of my life so he won't have to put his life on hold. I come to L.A to not think about my sister I couldn't even take it in cause I had to take care of Mae. I come to find out I have a sister and brother that my own mother didn't want me but she want Haile and Brandon and then I see the love of my life with someone else. Then next then I know I'm getting Rape and I can't even think right all I'm thinking us about my album how I need to make money for Mae and how are my fans going to like the album because I put my heart and soul into it how all I want to do is just stay in my bed and cry but I can't because I have to stay strong for Mae for Brandon and every one else how am I going to be able to fid this from my fans or should I tell them or should I do this or that. All I want to do is get away from every- body but I can't cause I have to stay here for Mae I can't just leave I can't just be like a normal person and do this with be taking photos of me every where I go I just want it to all stop" I say all that while sodding

Nick just looks at me shock he then hugs me and say "maybe you do leave for a week or so I'm sure Steve wouldn't mind having time with his daughter and the boys understand  what your going though and will be okay with you leaving to have time to yourself maybe you should go to New Jersey for a bit then go somewhere else and just relax" I look up at him still sodding he shots me that smile and I somewhat stop crying

"hey remember when we were like 5 and we ran away from home cause you didn't want to move you didn't want to leave me so we pack a bag and went to this beautiful place but soon we came back cause we wanted food" he say I laugh

"yeah I remember and I would always go there when I need to think or if I was having a bad day and only you knew where and when someone asked you where this place was you'll always, 'sorry can't tell you it's a secret' " I say thinking back

"You always knew how to make me tell you what wrong and then some- how make me laugh" I say look at him "I know it's what I'm good at ohh and did you say I was ' the love of your life'" he said I smile "no your hearing things" I told him "oh" he said faking be sad I laugh "I'm just kidding yes I did say that" he looks up and smiles

We both got sleepy so we went down to my room I took off my pants and shoes and stayed in my hoodie will Nick's hoodie but whatever. Nick lays with me in only sweat pants, my head was on his chest and his arm was around me his hand was on my ass and we fell asleep.