Monsta [book 2]

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santana's point of view

He pulls up his sweatpants and I toss back on my shirt.

Me: How many times did you fuck her?
Changkyun: Once, I swear.

I sigh.

While I was away at college Changkyun befriended her. They met at a bookstore or was it a library? Anyways, she fangirled over him and he found it sweet. The friendship started from there.

Changkyun: Do you remember that night you and I got into a huge fight?
Me: We always fight, be specific.

He rolls his eyes.

Changkyun: You were away and I felt lonely, I didn't communicate right so it went in flames.

Ah, of course.

Changkyun: I was annoyed with you so I started drinking, I invited her over to talk. One dumb decision lead to another and we had sex but..
Me: But?

His face turns pink.

Changkyun: I called her by your name.

I pop my imaginary collar.

Me: And then?
Changkyun: I pulled out and told her I couldn't do it.

Wow.

Changkyun: Surprisingly she didn't ask any questions, she just said okay.
Me: So why the sudden messages?
Changkyun: It's not sudden, she's been doing this for weeks now.

I let out an exasperated sigh, of course.

Changkyun: I never wanted to be with her, the sex itself was a mistake. It's just.. while you were gone things were bad here, at least for me it was.

During those four years I never visited the boys. Our schedules never matched up and every other week I was arguing with one of them.

Not to mention when they toured the states I went months without hearing from them. It was extremely rough.

Changkyun: I'm sorry for not saying anything sooner.
Me: Is this why you've been acting moody all week?

He shakes his head.

Changkyun: No, I've been trying to write a song and get this choreography right. So sleep has been nonexistent.

He wraps his arms around my waist and buries his face in my neck, Changkyun is a baby.

A cranky, sassy, frustrating baby.

Me: You do realize you're going to have to talk to her, right? She's not going to leave you alone unless you set her straight.

He raises his head and smiles.

Changkyun: I'll tell her my girlfriend, who I also share with my six hyungs, said leave me alone.

I thump his forehead.

Me: No you jackass.

"Are you guys done with the bullshit now?"

I frown, Minhyuk.

___

I glance at the clock and curse, he's twenty minutes late to his session. I chug my second cup of coffee and sigh.

My eyes are so heavy, I just want to sleep.

The door opens and he gives me an innocent smile while I glare at him.

Hyungwon: I'm sorry, I'm sorry.
Me: You're practice room is literally down the hall, how are you late?

He shrugs.

Hyungwon: You look tired.
Me: You look tired.
Hyungwon: I always look like this.

I close my eyes to snap out of Santana the girlfriend and into Santana the counselor.

Me: So last time we talked you said some days you find it hard to get out of bed.

He nods.

Hyungwon: Because Kihyun turns the heat off so it's cold in the morning.
Me: Hm.

He leans forward in his chair, I sit my notebook down and eye the handsome boy.

Me: How's the choreography for this comeback?
Hyungwon: Hard, just like all the past choreography.

Interesting.

Me: Have you got it down pact yet?
Hyungwon: No.
Me: Any reason for it?
Hyungwon: I'm learning it just like the rest of the guys.

I nod.

Me: The others said it's really hard to do but they've been staying after to work harder at it. Have you been staying?
Hyungwon: No, I'm tired and don't want to do anything extra.

I frown.

This isn't the Hyungwon I know.

Don't be a girlfriend right now.

Me: The motivation is gone, is that why it's hard to wake up in the morning?

He doesn't say anything, his eyes glance at the clock.

Hyungwon: I have a shoot with allure magazine soon. Can we wrap this up?

A sigh leaves my lips but I force a smile.

Me: Of course.

__

On my way out for the day I bump into Lee, he grins from ear to ear.

Lee: Hey!
Me: Hi, you seem happy.

He nods.

Lee: I get to guest star on one of my favorite dramas this week.
Me: Congratulations!
Lee: Thank you, you should come have a drink with me to celebrate!

I scratch my head and chuckle.

Me: I would but I've been really busy lately.
Lee: That's even more reason to have a drink, you get to unwind.

He has not changed, still persistent.

Me: Maybe next time.

He sticks out his pinky.

Lee: Promise?

I hook my pinky with his and agree. He gives me one last smile before leaving.

I continue my journey down the hall until I see a familiar girl, she glances at me and smiles.

Me: You're the girl from the library right?

She nods.

Mae: Yes! I just came here to visit someone. What's up with you?
Me: I work here.
Mae: That's so cool!

She glances behind her and smiles again.

Mae: I have to get going but see you around!
Me: See ya!

Sweet girl.

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how is everyone doing?

sooo much is about to happen in this book :)